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Castiel Imagine

Just a filler I wrote last night and I liked it a lot! Love you guys-M.G.❤

"I dont I don't feel like I belong here Castiel. I feel like I'm a burden.. I'm a ball and chain. I don't want this for them, I want them to be able to move forward and not come back for me all the time. I want them to see that it's ok to leave me because I have never belonged here and they know that. Hell even you know that. 
They don't need this girl to drag along with them, let them run freely into a new situation without having me to carry around. I'm deadweight castiel. They shouldn't have me. Just let me go.." you whimpered out to him. 

His heart wrenched at the sight of your crying eyes. "(Y/n), you are part of this family. We care about you, we love you.. I love you. You don't bring anything or any of us down. You lift us up when we feel we can't go any further. We need you to get through this. You fight for us. Let us fight for you." Castiel said taking your hand in twisting it slightly so he could place a kiss on your wrist. 

You look at him with puffy eyes and red cheeks. Hair matted to your face by dried tears. "Castiel please, let me go..." you pleaded with the angel in front of you. 

He gripped your hands tighter. "There is no reason to let go (y/n). You have to stay. For us please we need you here. I need you here. Don't make me let you go, because you know damn well that I can't do that. Not to you." He voiced sternly, yet you could hear the desperation behind it. Dying for you to not leave him. 

Lifting your hand from his you wipe your tears away. Sniffling while taking a shaky breath in and out. Trying to articulate your words correctly. 
"Cas. If I stay here, this battleship will sink beneath the waves. Our family will be torn apart in front of our eyes because one little girl couldn't keep up. That girl is me and I'm not letting this happen to you. I love you too much- - I love you all too much to see you stumbling around and falling again and again because of me." You said not even getting anything else out before cas speaking up. 

"No, (y/n). Don't you dare speak of yourself that way. Don't you dare assume anything about this family. We care for eachother, we make mistakes, we fall, we break. We get up, we make up for it, and we fix each other because that's what families do. Without you this battleship will not just sink. It will be swallowed by the sea and never be discovered. Without you we will be forgotten. Without you there is no family, there is just a room full of people who know each other but don't have the fire they used to. Without you we are more than just one person down. We are all down. You are a pillar and you have always kept this ceiling from collapsing around us. You've kept me strong, you've taught me love. You taught me to feel. I love you and this is where you belong. With me, and with your family. So don't leave." Castiel preached.  
You had begun to cry once more. You didn't know you actually meant that much. You had never realized your worth to these people. To your family. To Castiel. 

You surged forward and into his arms. Gripping tightly to the angels trench coat. His arms folded around you, and you soon noticed that beautiful raven wings curling around you as well. 

No words had to be said, all it took was one sweet kiss. Just one. He leaned down and captured your lips with a tender longing you've never felt except around him. 

You would stay. Not just for him but for your family. The ones who adore you, and the ones you adored.