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how they help you deal with depression -Jack

For Spn_Fam1 💛

Jack: Jack was unaware of your ongoing battle with depression and anxiety. So when he had disappeared after the incident with Mary, you were a mess. 

Your heart broke for the boys, because you loved Mary too but yours also broke because the love of your life disappeared on you. You had been trying to find him anywhere. You wanted to help him, you knew he didn't mean to. 

You knew Dean was ready to kill him, and you understood why, but you couldn't let it happen. You just couldn't. You needed Jack, without him your mind went back to that dark place it used to be in. With Jack things had gotten better, you had hope. Now that he's gone, your whole world was crumbling around you. 

You felt yourself crumbling along with it, you basically had to drag yourself around. No matter where you went it reminded you of Jack. It reminded you of the days you would sit on your bed with him and do research. Which pretty much meant you were joking around, sometimes even imitating the boys. It reminded you of the nights when you would dance around the kitchen while making cookies and pie for Dean. Sharing floury kisses, and his arms around your waist while you made the cookie dough. It killed you knowing that those moments were gone. He was gone. 

You felt yourself reverting back into your old habits, distancing yourself, barely getting out of bed, not eating, crying yourself to sleep most nights or just not feeling a damn thing. 

So here you were outside of the bunker a few miles away sitting in the grass where you and Jack used to. 

"Jack, my love. If-if you can hear me. Please come back to me. Just me ok I need you. I can't sleep, I can't eat I can't move. I can barely breath. My world is crumbling around me. My depression is back, and it's worse than ever without you. Everything is out of control. I need help Jack, please help me." You whimpered out. Your head in your hands and tears on your face. 

You sat there for a while longer when all of a sudden you heard a whoosh and a slight flap of wings. Instantly you turn around, and there in front of you is the one thing that had been missing from you. You quickly stood from your spot on the ground and jumped at him. He caught you quickly as you wrapped yourself around him. 

"Jack, you're here. You're actually here.." you cried into his neck. He held you tighter. "I'm sorry I left (y/n). I just can't face them. I need to make this right. I have to bring her back." He said into your ear. 

You pulled back and he set you down. "Jack. I need your help, I don't want to hurt anymore. I can't take another night, another day without you. Please it's killing me." You said. 

He lifted his hands to your cheeks and looked into your eyes, "I'm here now, ok. I'll be here whenever you call me. I won't leave you alone again but I can't stay for too long. I need to make this right." He said. 

You nodded. "Just hold me then. just for a while. Just so I know you're really here." You asked, your voice soft. 

He pulled you close again, and lifted your face so you looked at him. He leaned in and placed a soft kiss on your lips. Your hands traveled to his hair and tugged on the soft strands. He sighed and pulled away

"You won't have to hurt anymore, I won't let it happen ok. You can pray to me, I can hear you. I'll come to you when I can. I swear it. You won't be alone anymore and I won't let you fall apart. I've got you now. I'll make this right and we'll be ok." He said before pulling you in for another kiss. 

You nodded once he pulled away "ok my love...ok," you mumbled while pulling him into a hug holding on for as long as possible. Holding on to your hope, you finally had it back.