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Sam imagine❤

Just a little filler for you all!! The "things said while asleep" part for Jack should be up later tonight!

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Your heart broke at the news of Charlie's death. You sat there in the library just processing the news. You felt more in shock than anything. You didn't have it in you to cry, so you just didn't. Sam, understanding the way you were, got up from his chair and moved towards you. He held his arms out for you motioning for a hug which you gladly gave. You felt the tears on your shoulder and hugged him a little tighter before pulling away. You tended to be the advisor and comforter in these situations. So the one thing you thought to do most was give him some reassurance. 

"Sammy, hey what happened is horrible. It hurts me too, I loved her just the same as you did. You were trying to save Dean, so was Charlie... you didn't know that would happen ok. You didn't expect this, Sammy, It hurts right now, but it's not the end of the world." You said in a gentle but firm tone. You wipe away his tears, as you try and hold back the same feeling you have. Trying to take your own advice. 

You take his hands and sit down inviting him to take the seat closest to you. Turning your chair to face him, you reach up and move a strand of his hair away from his face. He tried to keep the tears back, to be strong for you like you were for him. 

"Sam, it's ok to feel these things, but you can't let them consume you like this. It's not good for you, I've learned that the hard way and I've grown from it. It's hard at first but you will be ok. We all will, we have to be." You said. He was now fully facing you with your hands being held in his larger ones. 

"I know (y/n). I know we'll be ok, but you have to promise me something. Ok, I know you feel you have to be strong for everyone. You have to be completely independent. You don't need help, but I know you (y/n). I know you and I need you to know that it's ok to be open with me. What we just heard, this whole situation is heartbreaking. You need to understand that I'm here for you, you don't have to do this on your own because you think you have to. Being strong is good, and you're strong but letting someone in is stronger. It's not a weakness. I want you to promise me, just try it... let me in." Sam said. His eyes were glassy with tears threatening to fall. 

You looked at him, trying to keep yourself together. You too had tears willing to cling to your lashes and trail down your face. You played his words through your mind over and again. In this life you lived, hunting things, having no chance to rest or recover. You never knew how much you needed to hear that from someone. Sam saying that to you felt like an unknown burden lifted from your shoulders. 

"Thank you Sammy. I promise I'll try. I promise." You replied to him. His eyes lit up, and a small smile crossed his features. His eyes were still red from crying, but he looked at you and saw the same thing. He really did love you, and you loved him. Loved him so much that you were willing to do what it takes to let him in and let him take care of you like you do for him.