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Ok, stop here if you have not seen season 15!
Don't read if you have not seen last weeks episode. Spoilers. Spoliers. Spoilers. Don't read if you haven't seen any of season 15. Just don't.

STOP NOW, LAST CHANCE Y'ALL. SPOLIERS TO HELL, THROUGH PURGATORY, AND BACK.

DON'T TRY IT Y'ALL, AND DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.

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"Castiel... Angel, I'm scared." You said to him your voice laced with unease. You looked at him in those beautiful blue eyes, to see that tears pooled in them. Your heart broke at the sight.

"I'm scared too (y/n), but if this is the end.
Know this:
"You will always be the love of my life. You have given me this life I never could have dreamed of. It's been a difficult journey, and no matter what, we have fought beside and for each other. I will never stop fighting for you until the day I die. You've taught me what bravery is. You've given me truer love than I could ever imagine deserving. I will die for you (y/n), and I won't be afraid to. We will be ok, no matter what happens. No matter how our stories end or who's ends first we will always love and fight for each other. I will always love, and fight for you. He said pulling you close and gripping you tightly. You did the same for him and leaned up to press your lips on his. He kissed back passionately, slolwy descending into a sweet whole-hearted kiss. "It's ok, Angel.. we'll be ok. You've brought out all the good in me. You've discovered more about me than me, and defended me. You've seen me at my worst and my best, You've given me a chance again. You give me hope, Castiel. You give me the strength to wake up in the morning. Waking up to you, fighting for you and with you has been the experience no one would ever dream of having. Through tears, blood, pain and every damn apocalypse,  were here to wage war again. We will win. I know it." You cried to him and he placed a kiss on your forehead.

You just held each other, no words just unspoken, unbreakable love.

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You had gotten to Eileen's place as fast as possible. Only to see that everything she had was left on the sidewalk she was nowhere to be found. Your heart shattered and you saw Sam begin to tear up and cry. It broke you to see your brother like that. It was so hard to watch, but you did as well as you could to comfort him.

You all decided on going to help keep people safe from Billie while Dean and Cas went to kill her.
You opposed when Castiel volunteered to go. "No, Cas, you can't go. Don't leave me..." you pleaded softly. "I have to do something (y/n), please. I'll be ok, so will Dean. I'll be careful, I'll stay alive and keep him alive. I will come back to you, I promise." He said quickly before placing a kiss on your lips, letting them linger a moment "I'm coming back to you (y/n). I promise it." He said against your lips. He kissed you again before quickly departing with Dean to kill Billie.

Your heart was pounding a mile a second at the thought of him being away from you. Dean being gone as well hurt you. Now we just have to see...

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The next thing you know everyone in the safe place had disappeared. Everyone except for you, Jack, and Sam were just gone. You were scared, incredibly scared. You tried calling Dean multiple times and Cas but there was no answer. You had started to become overwhelmed at the fact that they weren't answering you.
Not even a day later you find out that your boyfriend sacrificed himself for Dean.
Dean told you what he had said, and you broke. You had felt a piece of your soul break and you had a feeling, but you ignored it. Wanting to have faith in Castisl to come back to you. I guess it was true... he was gone and so was the piece of your soul he held so safely in his hands.

But right now. You knew that he would want you to fight. Not give up no matter the pain. Know that he is still with you, fighting beside you and for you. You could almost here him say it... those words he told you everyday.

"I believe in you, I love you (y/n)."