Blood Crown

Blood Crown - 29

"Why did you do that!" I yelled before wispering "I wasn't ready"

He sighed and laid back on the bed.

"Come on Liana, we both knew you wouldn't have been able to make your mind up so I made it for you-"

"That wasn't your decision to make!" I screamed as angry tears streamed down my cheeks.

"Why are you angry, you weren't going to choose me-"

"How do you know that Lucifer? How the fuck do you know that!"

Lucifer looked stunned as he now sat on the bed, quickly he shook his head and groaned.

"It doesn't matter, at least now I won't feel like I was brainwashing you. If you choose to be with me now that'll be your decision but Liana, I want you to be happy, I know I can't-"

"Lucifer I was happy tonight, I was beyond happy, you were everything I wanted in a partner and more" I whispered before sitting next to him.

"Babe" he said quietly as he placed his hand on my face "I could make one night of your life happy, what about the rest of your life? What about when you want children? When you want more? What then? You would regret not being with Kaden and we both know that." He said softly, it broke my heart but he was right, Lucifer would never want children and I knew I might one day. He would always be busy with ruling, that was a priority for him and I understood that. Plus, it's true that I was made to rule beside Kade.

"Listen, I'll always be here, I promise" he said before he leaned in and kissed me, a part of me felt fucked up for returning the kiss but the other part wanted to.

"Go to him, he is still there trust me, he won't leave until he sees you leave" Lucifer said with a smirk. I chuckled dryly as I looked down, I did want to go with him. I missed him, but I felt awful. I didn't know what to do.

Lucifer got up and went to the bathroom.
"I'll go get ready and head back to my realm, you will be okay my love, you're the strongest person I know, Kaden is a lucky guy" he said with a smile before he closed the door and the shower came on. I sighed and gripped my hair feeling the frustration set in.

I felt insanely fucked up, I remembered everything, I knew I needed to confront my mother eventually and find out just what game she was playing at. I also knew that I just basically cheated on Kade multiple times, I didn't know how to feel or if he would still even accept me. Granted, I couldn't remember but still, I knew the pain would tear him apart, I mean it would devastate me.

God Kade, please forgive me.

I brought my hand up and stared at the tattoo, tears pooled in my eyes, how could I forget him? I was a dreadful person...

"Babe" Lucifer whispered before he sat fully clothed and showered, he seemed at war with himself as he stared at me.
"It isn't your fault Liana, none of this is, you had no control over your memories, your mother, fucking El did this and you need to accept that and forgive yourself. I'm sorry I didn't stop this, I am insanely attached to you and I couldn't resist-"

"Don't blame yourself, it was a joint effort" I said with a sad smile
"Hey" I said as I placed my hand in his "I didn't regret it, I had fun, I just can't help the guilt I feel" I said softly, I didn't want Lucifer's feelings to be even more hurt. He was a good guy, this wasn't his doing.

"Go to him" Lucifer said softly before he squeezed my hand and offered a sad smile. He leaned over and placed a lingering kiss to my forehead before slipping into the portal he created and vanishing.

I groaned in frustration and slumped back onto the bed gripping my hair, I was being consumed slowly by my overbearing thoughts. About my mother, my father, Lucifer and lastly, Kade.