Out of my League. (ForthBeam FF)

bye.. or see you around.

Forth's POV

He is now sleeping.

He is mine. All mine for a night?
Shit!
My parents wants me to pursue him for a year. His parents might have different view.
Why am i feeling that he gave his all and his best tonight, because tomorrow i will be forgotten.

He sleeps so peacefully, i wish, i hope, he will call me again. Like he does when he was drunk, or like he does when he was in the car. On that trip with Phana and Kit.

But he is peaceful. I embraced him tightly.

Then tears fell.
Is this goodbye.
We are just begining, but we have to end it.

Tightly i embraced him.

"Love, please keep your promise, you will wait for me to wake up. " i whispered.

"Forth.. go... to sleepp.. as if.. i can.. move essily tomorrow." He said mumbling.

I kissed him and he responded, then i let go. But pecked on cheeks before closing my eyes.

I opened my eyes and the sun already shines. What time is it? I looked for my phone. I stretched my arms, no this is not my bed.
Then i sit up.
"Beam!"

"Yeah!" He shouted in the bathroom.

I smiked and stood up.

I tried to open the bathroom door but it is locked from the inside.

"Love let me in" i pleaded.

"Forth you have three rooms and all have their own bathrooms, please use one of the two. And please. Stop calling me love!" He shouted.

"Okay i will go to my room now love." I teased him.

"Shit Forth!" He shouted i laughed.

After the bathroom bussiness, time to cook.

Breakfats is done. I went back to the room but the bed is cleaned. I checked on the other room.

He is wearing a shirt when i get in.

"I know this is your apartment but would you mind knocking first?" He siad sulking.

"Sorry, breakfast is ready love." I said teasing him again.

"Forth please. Stop that thing." He said.

I smiled at him and went to him.

"Can i kiss you?" I bravely ask.
He just looked at me, then i kissed him. He let me. Devour him.

I want more than this, but i know. He wont give in.

He pushed me a bit. I pecked on his lips and carried him.

"Wooah! Forth put me down." He said protesting.

"Fight and i will pin you on the wall and force myself on you love." I said firmly. He shut up and wrap his arms on my neck.

(A/N: i wish Pavel would really do this to Dome.).

I put him down on a chair and served him food. Then placed a medicine on the side of his plate.

He thanked me, and gave me cute smiles while we eat.

"Forth, you are not eating!" He said firmly.

"Huh" i said.
I checked myself. Shit i am just staring at him.

He shook his head.
I eat,

I saw him drink the medicines.

"You're done eating?" I asked.

"You where out of your self while i eat. Look this foods are all your shares." He said, and he is right.

He walked slowly to the sofa.

I shake my head.
"Let me help you love." I said and carried him to the sofa. Opened the TV and give him the remote control.

I went back to my food i need to finish it and i want to sit beside him.

I ate my food and cleaned the table.
Hell the dishes!

I went to my small living room and sit beside him.

He leaned his head on my shoulder.

O my love Beam. I feel like having a quality time with my boyfriend right now.

I savour the moment. I lift my hand and he possitioned himself i caged him inside my embrace.

We watched comedy.

"Forth, have you washed the dishes?" He asked.

"Not yet, i will do it later. I want this quality time with you." I said and pecked on his forehead.

He turned his head back to the tv. But still caged in my embrace.

We laughed as we watch.

But then

"Forth. Can we talk?"
I suddenly felt the seriousness.

Is this it?

"Forth. Thank you."
He sat staight and hold both my hands.
"I want to thank you... " his tears fall.
"Let me talk." He wipes his tears on his shirt sleave.
"If you only knew how much i like you. But we can't be right now. Can we befirends."
He looked in my eyes.

Shit!

Back to ground zero.

I closed my eyes and let him hug me.

He kissed my cheecks. I heard the door closed.
I wake up, and run outside. I embraced him from his back.

"Let me take care of you, as your friend." My voice shakes. I carried him to my car and i get my keys. Locked my apartment and send him to his dorm. Sunday at this time, there are few people here. He walked straight but i know he is hurting.
When get to his room. I guided him to his bed.

"Where is your med. Kit" i asked him he opened his drawer.

I looked for mefenamic and gave it to him and gave him water.

"Take your rest love, i will be back." I said and i run to the groceries.

When i get back i moved as if it is mine. I made him soup, and toasted some bread.

I put it on his bedside table.

Then i continued to move and cooked him buttered veggies and fried chicken.

"This is your lunch." I said.
"If it gets cold, reheat it" i said.

I walked to him.

"Beam, i love you."
I held his hands.

"Forth it's  not worth it." He answered.
"I might hurt you over and over again." Beam said. His words cuts in my heart.i know he already told me i am only a friend to him.

"But everything for you and about you is worth it Beam." I said crying,

"Forth, do not make it hard for yourself. I like you as friend"

"Beam last night?" I asked.

"Was a goodbye, or see you around" he said and smiled.

"Be prepared for me Beam. Last night is the second. It broke the rule, it is not one night stand Beam. Be ready for me."
I kissed him harshly and passionately. Then i walked to the door.

"See you around." I said.

Get out of the room and closed the door. I stormed out of the dorm and drove back to my place.

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10/20/19