Out of my League. (ForthBeam FF)

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Forth's POV.

Exams burned my brain.
Beam burned my heart.

Now my body is burning hot.

I am kneeling on a sand on the beach at 12noon. With out a shade to protect me from the scorching sun.

12 fuck'n noon. And i am ordered to endure it.

Noone can help me, this place is desserted. It is a beautiful beach. But it could be better if i can enjoy it. Like Beam would be here with me.

We will sit under the palm trees and drink coconut juice. Then just rest there till the scorching heat will be blown by cold afternoon breeze.

When it is more shady.

And we will bathe on the water.

And we will wait till sunset and watch the sunset together.

And i will hold him embrace him.

I wish my Beam is here.

His smile can remove the pain.

His smile can soothe the scorching heat.

His smile can relieve me and smile to me also.

Beam.

My  naked shoulders feels sore as sweat run through it. But not only on my shoulder, but also my back hurt. Now my feet feels numb.

When i was thinking of Beam. I did not felt any pain.

"Forth, sorry i was ordered to do this." Lam said, i did not noticed his presence. He tied my hands behind me.

I nooded.

Forget your numb feet Forth and focus on Beam you are on the second part. The third will be  not long.

Beam..

I looked at the waters of the beach it is peaceful.
Just like Beam when he is sleeping.

I smirked a litle.

His calm face. My gear on his neck.
His smooth skin.

His nose,

His lips.

His cuteness.

He is so damn beautiful.

How was his exams.

I hope he passed. I know he will be a fine doctor.

Beam, my doctor Beam.

I want him to pursue his dreams and finish his studies.

To be able to do that.

I must be stronger than this.

I must endure this. I must pass this test.

Forget pain, numb and sore.

Beam....

"Forth, i am sorry to do this."
Max said he stretched a black handkerchief and tied my eyes with it.

I closed my eyes .

Beam...

I wish i can embrace you after this.

I wish i can see you.

I wish i can kiss you.

I need you love.

So damn clueless of how long i have been kneeling and in this possition. Even my whole body feels numb.

Beam...