I'm so close to apologizing to you
After everything you say
Even if it makes no sense
I almost type it out
Almost send it
Silently cry as I hold back the apology
Because you wouldn't know what I'm sorry for
You would ask why
And I-
...I don't have an explanation
Not for you
Not one you would understand
Not one you should have to be burdened with
I am protecting you
Protecting you from me
Strange considering we're together
But still
I am protecting you until you realize that you should leave
I am keeping you as safe as I can before I hurt you somehow
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I'm just waiting
I'm sorry for lying
I'm sorry I'm such a mess
I'm sorry I love you
I'm sorry you love me
And I'm sorry for however I fuck up in the future
I'm just sorry
But
I don't have an explanation that I could give you
And I'm sorry for that too
YOU ARE READING
Blood Stains
Poetry*trigger warning* I'm lost•I'm broken•I'm hurt•I'm sorry ~the ones marked "x" are about my struggle with food and eating~
