I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I didn't look at you
I'm sorry that I couldn't look at you
I'm sorry if you noticed
And I'm sorry for....everything?
I wanted to look at you
And talk to you more
I always do
But
I can't
I don't know why either
I mean
I could name some reasons but
With you
I'm scared to look into why
Why I'm scared of you
Not scared of you
But scared of you
I couldn't look at you because I was afraid that... you weren't real
I was scared that if I looked you wouldn't be there
Or all I would see is you leave
And I know that's weird
And stupid
And ridiculous
But I'm scared
And I'm scared that if a person hugs me they'll become disgusted
Or
I don't even know
I'm stupid
And my thoughts are ridiculous
And I'm sorry
YOU ARE READING
Blood Stains
Poetry*trigger warning* I'm lost•I'm broken•I'm hurt•I'm sorry ~the ones marked "x" are about my struggle with food and eating~
