Black Heart (Book #1)

Chapter Thirty Nine

Kai's POV

Chanyeol had decided that it was a good idea that we go out and do something before Mr. and Mrs. Park get back from the states. Chanyeol said it would get my mind off of everything but my heart still longed for Kyung Mi. I felt so terrible that I hurt the girl I liked. I took everything that she loved from her and for that I loathed myself. I can't bring her mother back and I can't get us back either. Kyung Mi was once in a million the girl who kept me going. But as of yesterday my world stopped at a standstill without her in it.

"The guys are going to meet us at the park to play some football". Chanyeol spoke cutting my thoughts off. I looked over at him not wanting to participate in such activity. "Do I have to play? I'm still recovering from my wound". Which was the truth. "Right I forgot you are still recovering from that. We can go do something else if you want. Something less active". Chanyeol suggested.

Really all I wanted to do was stay in bed and write. "Honestly I just want to write and stay in bed. Since I technically can't do what I really want to do. I haven't done it in so long since I been fighting for my life lately. Just once in my life Chanyeol I want a normal life like any other person my age. Nobody in this life should have to go through what I do. I put you and your parents through hell ever since I arrived at your doorstep. But the last few years you've shown me what family really is. And for that I'll always be grateful towards you. I know I don't show my feelings much and that I always come off as cold, but you and Kyung Mi have warmed my cold heart". Chanyeol looked at me appalled taken aback.

A small smile came to his lips as he looked over at me. "She's changed you and I like this new side of you. While I know you don't show emotions much I still know you're thankful. And I'll take that comment. But the biggest thing of all that you've forgotten was that it was you who decided to change your heart. We may have been a small part of it, but the rest was all you Kai. You chosen to look in the brighter side of things and take them as is. It's you who chose to have a change of heart".

I let what Chanyeol said sink in. Was it really me who wanted to change for the better? Why do I feel like a different person? Was I going to continue to be this said new person? Guess I'll have to choose quickly on who this new me is. "I think it has always been you who has influenced me of always following my dreams and to be humble due to my past. Over the years you've taught me things that will last a lifetime. It's what had always kept me going when I had wanted to end it. But you had always told me to continue fighting so I fought because of you". Without Chanyeol I probably wouldn't be here and him and I will always have a good brother bond.

As soon as we arrived at the park all the rest of the guys were there. They were passing the football around not noticing us. I sat down on the bench watching Chanyeol talking with them. It had been a while since we all had a normal day together.

I was taken out of my thoughts when Lay sat beside me. "I never told Chanyeol what you went through that night I was kidnapped. I figured you would tell him what happened that he'd want to hear it from you. Have you made up your mind on what you're going to do Monday night?" Part of me felt guilty that I hadn't told Chanyeol everything. "Our parents are coming back from the states tonight to discuss on what to do since I got my memories back now. Now that my memories were found they have to amp up the security to protect me. But that means putting you all at risk. I told Chanyeol about Kyung Mi and what happened. But I still hadn't told him the rest. And I'm running out of time. My plan can get me killed, which is Mr. So's wish, but I'm not ready to leave. I have unfinished things that I need to fix". I knew my plan was risky one that Chanyeol and his parents couldn't find out. Only one person can know and myself.

"What's this plan of yours?" Lay asked now more interested. "If Mr. So finds out that I have my memories he can use it against me. For all I know he could have told Kyung Mi things that weren't true. Him and his wife are on a black list, but I could use it against him by exposing him to his crew. Over the years I noticed that he never hires the same team twice. It's always different to which maybe they know nothing of his background. And I can't hand over this watch to him. That's what he is after and I can't let this fall into the wrong hands. Him and his wife aren't innocent. My parents took this from their team in order to protect the world from damage. Which brings us back to that so many years ago when our parents died. I have to give this to the right people I just know who it is. But I have to make sure they are on the same page. If they aren't then I am completely alone on the plan".

To expose Mr. So was going to be difficult, but I hope with my backup plan that it will work. Partly I will be alone since I have a trick up my sleeve, but it comes with a cost. One I can't afford to lose. "So let me get this straight. You're going to expose Mr. So to his people while trying to cover your tracks of not handing over the watch? You do realize that this plan is highly dangerous and can get you killed". Lay's tone was serious mixed with great concerned. I nodded.

"Yes, I know it's highly dangerous but it's a risk I'll have to take. I fought him a bunch of times and he hasn't killed me yet. I have a strong will to live a fire that he can't put out. I won't let him get away with how much hurt and pain he's caused me. He's hurt me for the last time and my family. Without all this hardship I wouldn't have found friendship or would I have found who I was meant to be. But by no means is this going to be the end of me". I let those words sink in between us letting out all the emotions I been holding in.

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