Black Heart (Book #1)

Chapter Forty Two

Kai's POV

The next day I had decided to talk to Kyung Mi. I wasn't sure if she'd give me a chance to explain myself, but I had to try. I had to get her back. My life wasn't the same without her. I felt empty with out her presence. I waited at the gates watching as the students walked by hoping one of them was Kyung Mi. But none of the girls were her as they walked by. Chanyeol encouraged me to follow my heart as he to knew I wasn't the same without her.

I looked up just in time to catch her grey blazer in front of me. Only I wasn't dreaming that she was actually standing in front of me. "Kyung Mi, what are you doing here?" I winced at my own question when it wasn't what I wanted to ask.

"I wanted to tell you that I'm not mad at you for what happened last night. My dad got what he deserved. I didn't want you to hate yourself for what happened. I just came to say that whatever we had between us let's not pursue it. We both got hurt in the end and that probably won't change. From here onwards we'll go on like we never met". She turned to walk away but I grabbed onto her wrist pulling her towards me.

"Is that really what you want Kyung Mi? Because it's not what I want. I don't want to go on like we're complete strangers. I don't want us to end. I never I meant to hurt you Kyung Mi. I know our pasts are both tragic. . . but I want to move on from it. I want to stay in the moment with you and continue onward with you. Whatever challenges come our way we can face them together. Is this really what you want?" I asked gently holding onto her hands.

Tears filled her eyes as she looked at our conjoined hands. "I don't know what I want Kai. But this. . . this right now doesn't feel right. Our pasts have left permanent scars on us, ones we can't heal from. And just being around you triggers those memories. I'm sorry but I can't handle this right now. At this very moment just erase me from your memories. Because I've erased you from mine. Goodbye Kai". With each word she spoke was like knives stabbing me in the heart. I watched as her fingers slipped from mine her retreating figure getting smaller before disappearing into the crowd.

For the rest of the day I blocked everything and everyone out as the day came to a close. I slipped out of my school uniform and slipped on sports wear before heading to the local dance studio. It was one way of letting out my anger and stress.

I connected my phone to the doc playing the song that I had created. (The song he is dancing to is Deep Breath). As I took my place I couldn't help but let my emotions take over in my choreography.

I danced until I no longer could until Chanyeol came and got me. "Did something happen your mood is totally different?" Chanyeol said as we walked outside. I shrugged not in the mood to talk. "I don't want to talk about it. Just leave me alone". I plopped on my bed feeling tears burn my eyes, but I didn't dare let them fall because Chanyeol was across from me.

"I won't leave you alone until I know what's wrong". Chanyeol persisted making me get angrier. "Chanyeol, I won't ask again. I'm not in the mood to talk or vent. Please just give me space". I pleaded feeling my anger rise. Hurt crossed Chanyeol's features before he cleared his throat. "Alright I'll leave you alone as your wish". Chanyeol got up but not before slamming the door. I picked up my pen and started writing in my journal.

I was the monster that everyone feared
The one who nobody wanted around
The one who heard people talking about
The rumors that were all false
But who would believe a person like me
Who has lost everything
My world that came crashing down
I'm falling down this path
That is forever in my black heart
You turned my black heart red
But now it's turned back to black
As I become the person I was before. . .
(Please no one steal this poem I wrote without permission. Thank you).

Double update for you. That concludes the end of chapter forty two of Black Heart. This chapter kind of shows what Kai's emotions were and how he felt. What was your favorite part? Tell me in the comments your thoughts. What do you think will happen next? I want to thank everyone for reading and supporting this book. It truly means a lot. Don't forget to vote and comment.

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