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As I sat in my living room with my curtains drawn wide open, watching the sunrise, patiently waiting on some kind of good news about Jessie and the kids. It would really break my heart to hear something terrible had happened to them.
"FINALLY!" Vanny shouted while pitching up for the front door, I was right on her heel. We watched as patch hopped out of his truck and reached for the back door, I was so happy to see that the kids were with him, I didn't even give him a chance to take them out. "Oh my goodness I'm so relieved, I don't know what I would've done if you came here to just give us some type of bad news." I started looking down the street to see if anyone of the other guys was behind him, "Patch where's Nick? WHAT HAPPEN TO NICK!" I started panicking once I didn't see him especially after not getting a call letting me know he was ok.
"Chill, chill, he's at the hospital with Jessie, Maci it's bad and I think it's best y'all stay here until he gives me the full okay on letting y'all out to go down there and see her."
"What you mean waiting on the okay, patch I've been in this house all morning just waiting for some kind of answers, and let me tell you me and Maci sitting here with these kids won't give us any," Vanny inserted.
"Look I hear you out loud and clear but going down there right now won't give you those answers because we don't know how bad she is we just know it's bad." We all started walking towards the front door, still holding a conversation. "I was just told to drop the babies off and then I gotta go meet up with Nick back at the hospital, just to stand guard because believe it or not the war has just begun. "Where Roddy at anyway he was supposed to be here with y'all?" I was puzzled by that question because as far as I know Rod was gonna meet up with them.
Vanny paused in her tracks, "Excuse me, he left to meet up with y'all, listen it's been one hell of a long-ass morning patch quit with the games." I placed the car seat on the dining room table, while patch rest Nathan down on the couch, still fast asleep through all of the noise we were making.
"I'm not playing no games, it ain't even the time of day for all that. Look I'll call him while I make my way up to the hospital, I gotta go, y'all please stay out of trouble, just like two badass kids." I rolled my eyes at him while he jogged to the door. I wondered where Rod could be at because it was so many things going on and it wasn't even twelve o'clock in the day yet. Which meant that for me it was way too early for all this crazy ass shit that was going on.
"Mai, I know your gonna be mad at me but if Rod doesn't return my call in another half an hour I'm going to look for his ass because right now isn't the time to be disappearing." Before she could finish having a panic attack her phone started ringing, "Oh my goodness baby where have you been I was worried sick, are you okay? Are you headed to the hospital as yet? Can we come with you?"
and my nosy ass couldn't hear nothing Rod was saying but it's clear he told her no we couldn't come, I wonder what was going on with Jessie, it sounded like it was really bad. "I know I could've gotten him to change his mind, let's get the kids ready."
"Guess I was wrong," I said under my breath.
"You said something," Vanny asked?
"No, but all that's going on and the fact that the kids are still asleep, considering what went down this morning you really think we should have our babies up there in that nasty ass hospital." I mean I really didn't mind being by Jessie's side but the health and safety of my kids and also my niece and nephew was all that I cared about right now.
"Ok how about you stay here with the kids and I'll video call you when I get there because my mind is already made up to be there for Jessie, I see where yours is at." I didn't feel like getting into it with her so I just brushed off her slick remark.
"Yeah ok," I took a seat on my living room floor next to Nathan while I watch Vanny pick up her purse and kissed her baby on the forehead while she was still fast asleep before walking out, and for me, it was no goodbyes or a see you later.
After Nick ran our asses home me and Vanny were just arguing most of the time, either she was cutting on all the lights waking up my kids, or I was frustrating her by having my television too loud for her while she tried putting my niece to sleep, we needed this time apart from one another. Plus I needed some time to think about how I was gonna officially end things between me and Nick, I know he ain't gonna like it but I know what's best for me and fucking with his married ass ain't it.
I was interrupted in my thoughts by the whimper of baby Nick who was in the bassinet that sat by the door of my downstairs guest room. He was sleeping so peacefully, something that I wish I was doing right now but unfortunately I can't. I was in so much deep thought, how some people could be so cruel, Jessie's baby daddy made her life a living hell and he wasn't even here physically to do so. It shows how much power one person could have over another's life. I walked over to the bassinet, rocking it slowly so he could fall back to sleep, I wasn't ready for him to be up again. I just admired my son as he fell back to sleep so peacefully, staring at him. My son looked exactly like me, his thick thighs, his chubby cute cheeks, and his small bubble nose, I was in love with him and I was falling more and more the longer I stared.
I sat back down on the couch picking up my phone and going straight into my notes. I needed to vent somehow some way, I felt like everything was bottled up and at any point, I was going to explode. I had nobody to talk to, well at least nobody I felt comfortable talking to because I know I was going to be judged by them.
I never thought for a minute that I'd become the side chick by a man that loved the dirt I walked on. I also never thought that I'd fall out of love with him either. I always asked myself what am I searching for and before all of this my answers were so simple it was always you. Now it's I want you to leave me for good then it's I don't want you to ever leave me, it's like this chapter of my life is all a maze that I can't seem to solve, it's like I'm trapped and I don't really wanna get out.
I pitched up once my phone started buzzing in my pocket, I automatically knew who it was. "Nick, how is she," I asked?
"Mai it's not good, Jessie had a mild stroke and I don't know what to do I feel like all of this is my fault. The doctors said it's a good thing we brought her here because it could've been worse." I could hear that Nick was in tears and I wanted nothing but to be there for him. This was how I'd fall back into his spell but during this time I was trying not to think of it like that.
"Don't say that none of this is your fault. We all know that this is not your fault, if you want me to I can come by the hospital right away I'll just have to bring the kids with me. I really feel like I should be by your side."
"No, I don't want you guys up here, especially with all that's going on. But listen just make sure all the doors locked and the alarms are on, I'll try to come by around ten o'clock to check on you. Oh before I go just relax all that were going through right now won't last and I know that my sister is gonna be ok."
Here he go, always trying to be strong even when we both know he doesn't want to, I just wish he could accept the fact that men can be emotional too. "Nick it's ok to cry you do know that right, not all the time you could be tough," He brushed me off.
"I love you Maci, You don't have to say it back because I know you love me. Anyway, I have to go Rod and patch just got here. When I come by after I leave here I want talk to you about something."
"About something like what," I asked?
"Mai don't stress yourself out thinking about it, but for you it's good news," he said before hanging up and letting me have the last word. Just as he predicted I sat there stressing myself out as to what could be goodnews right now because all morning I've only been getting bad news.
