Loving The Right Way

CHAPTER TWELVE

Atlanta, Georgia
October 27th,2019

Vanny

October 26,2019 will forever be marked as the worst day of my life. I rolled over in the spot where rod would usually lay, smelling his pillow as my tears soaked it up, I couldn't believe it. The man that I was suppose to marry in less than a month was gone, taken away from me like it was nothing.

I was so proud of him and the drastic change he made, everyday he would leave a note thanking me for changing him and making him the man he is today but I would always had to tell him that I did nothing but show him real love.

Most people would wait a whole year to get married but he said six months was the most time he was gonna wait because he knew that I was the women he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. He had his ways and in the past he did some things to me no women should have to go through but I never had to worry about him sleeping around with other women or talking to someone else.

I just wanted to lay in bed and never come outta this room, I just wanted him back. A slight knock was at the door, "hey van it's me," when I opened up the door it was Maci and Nick, I just looked at them for a second and crawled back into bed leaving them standing there. "We just wanted to come in and make sure your ok," Maci said while walking in with Nick still by her side.

"Maci to be honest I'm not but that don't mean you have to stay here and make sure I'm ok because I'm never gonna be ok. Why would you even ask me a dumb question like that, I just lost my fiancé."

Nick stepped in front of her, "Come on mayne you don't have to speak to her like that, we just wanted to make sure everything was ok with you because we care about you."

"Oh y'all care about me, all of this is your fault if you ask me so don't act like everything good."

"HEY DON'T EVEN DO THAT," Maci pushed Nick back behind her. "Ain't none of this is his fault, he didn't even know Roddy was gonna go after Kendal. Just how you lost your fiancé he lost the mother of his child and his brother but he ain't pointing any fingers at nobody. Your out of line with this one like what you want for him to do go back in time and try avoid getting shot. Death is apart of life, and as human beings we all have to face it, let's not forget I lost a boyfriend to gun violence too, but I never went around pointing my fingers at people for his death, Nick come on let's go."

Was I wrong for hurting, or was I wrong for not being able to understand death. Why did it had to be Rod who was caught in the cross fire. The whole entire situation was just so fucked up, and one big circle of chaos.

"WAIT, Nick I'm sorry it's just that I don't understand none of my emotions right now, and I am hurting so so bad and it's so unbearable." He pulled me in wrapping his arms around my body, it was like he knew I was falling weak. Maci joined in hugging me from behind, I was starting to feel some love around me and I needed it so badly because if I didn't, I think I would only be existing, living without hope or faith.

I raised up off his chest wiping my face with my hands, "where are the girls I need to smile a little can you bring them." Nick went to retrieve the girls while  Maci stayed to finish talk with me.

"I hope that I didn't talk to you harsh but if I did I'm sorry.." I cut her off, "Mai you don't have to apologize I think your right and I was over doing it now that I look at it, it's just that I can't believe it you know, like it's all one scary nightmare I can't wake up from. I still want to know why she did it but the only three people who have the answers to that question ain't hear to say why."

Nick came back in holding Nikita and Nichole, both of them in high spirits bouncing up and down in their dad's arms. He placed both girls in the bed with us, as soon as Nichole got in the bed she crawled over into My hands, standing up while holding onto me, kissing me on the cheeks. "Awwwa," Maci and Nick said in unison.

"My sweet baby, it's like she know something is wrong because she usually don't like coming to me," I pulled her in giving her a nice hug.

"I don't know if Rod ever told you guys that we went to the doctor some time back, and they found a large cyst on my ovaries that just kept growing. I got it removed but we was still left with no hope. This morning I um took a pregnancy test, well a few test because lately I haven't been feeling good and well um," I pointed to the bathroom for them to look on the counter.

"Oh My God van, YESSSSS, I'm so happy I think this is the best news I've gotten in a while," she pulled me in for a hug, "At least we get to keep a tiny piece of Roddy with us."

"Congrats sis, welcome to parenthood anything you need to know just come to us we got you."

Maci rolled her eyes, "girl don't pay him any mind ok, you come to me considering I carried the baby."

"So everybody just getting pregnant huh," Nick commented.

"I guess so, what's the story with you two are you back together," I asked. Both of them just looked at each other with smiles, "No we decided that we're better off coparenting," Maci insisted, but from the look on Nick's face he didn't agree.

"Maci has moved on didn't you notice she got a famous boyfriend now, Gervonta Davis."

My face turned to her in shock, "Girlllll how the hell you get over there," I started teasing her. I guess the conversation was too much for Nick even though he was the one who brought it up, he walked out.

"Yikes, you think he jealous," I asked as Maci looked down at her hand, playing with her fingers.
"I don't know but he told me last night to move on and find someone who care about me, so that's what I'm doing he gonna have to get over it. Besides he got that girl from the club he fucks with," she picked up Nikita placing kisses on her cheeks. "Enough about me, my girl about to have her first bundle of JOY," we squealed together with so much rejoice and happiness in our voice. I lived for this moment right here, having my best friend back despite the reason I got her back but I was fine with it.