This Feeling

02

Chapter 2

Raphael's Point of View

"OH! How was your life gay cousin?" Asar ni Abiss sa akin.

Mayroon na naman siyang kasamang mga babae.

They laid their flirty eyes on me.

Ew.

"Well I got a brilliant idea on how I'm going to have Ade---" I looked at him with a dagger look.

Fuck!

I almost got myself exposed.

"Shit. Uhmm, girls can you leave for a sec? I'll be right back. Make yourselves ready." Malandi niyang sabi sa mga bitches.

"I'm sorry." He sincerely said.

He is my cousin. He is bisexual. Tanggap niya ako at nagpapasalamat ako dahil doon. I felt very sad and alone during those times when I haven't told anyone about me, being gay.

I have gone through some bad times and pretentious acts. There are times where I wanted to give up and decided to end my life.

When that day came, he came running and embraced me. We cried and comfort each other with a gentle touch. I was not attentive and almost quiet for a few weeks. I've lost all my hope and interest in my passion which is music.

But music helped me conquer it all. Ginugol ko ang lahat ng oras ko para matuto ng mga iba't ibang instrumento. Kumanta ako ng buong puso hanggang sa may nag-imbeta sa akin para sumali sa isang banda.

I was hesitant because I am still not that confident about myself. I asked Abiss about this matter. He encouraged me to join.

"Wala namang mawawala kung sasali ka at ano naman ngayon kung bakla ka. You can still sing and play. Nasa sa iyo na kung gusto mong malaman ng mundo ang sekreto mo."

His words pushed me to try. I did hide my true sexual orientation. I'm scared. My parents haven't known of my foolishness and I'm still not ready, to tell the truth.

So I joined the band called Necromancer. I was surprised. I didn't expect that we will get this much attention today.

"They fell into our spell." My bandmate said.

Until this guy came into my life.

"Adelmund! Adelmund! Adelmund!" The girls are shouting their hearts out.

I fell in love at first sight.

May banda rin siya. Sikat sila sa campus. Nakuha niya ako sa kanyang magandang boses at mahusay na paggigitara.

I stalked him almost a hundred times a day. Making sure I'm updated. I knew all of his favorites and track him when he will have his gigs. I didn't miss any of his performances.

And then one day, I woke up realizing that I'm in love.

I'm in love with Adelmund Lockheart.

Pero hindi ko maiwasang magselos sa mga oras na may mga bruhang napapalapit sa kanya.

He is well-known as a big chick boy at school but it did not affect his reputation.

Gusto pa ata ng mga babae na buntisin sila.

Tsk.

"Teka! Who's that girl?" Curious na tanong niya ng matanaw niya ang cellphone ko. I'm stalking Adaria.

Mabuti na lang at Adaria lang talaga ang name niya sa Facebook.

"She's my kitty." I playfully said.