Wilder Dreams

Chapter 67

"I don't want to go with Auntie Carli, I want to be with my mom" Savvy cried, and everyone trying to keep everything together for the sake of the children. Connor hugs her as he cries too, and it breaks everyones heart. Carli took custody of the kids, it's been a week. Everyone cries when the kids aren't around, Sage meant everything to the team. To women's soccer, so they'll be having a special memorial, everyone who knew her to come and celebrate the life she had.

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"This is so hard" she cracks out, and catches her breath. "Sage was so kind, and the most happiest person I ever met. Everytime she played, you knew she was going to do something amazing. She knew too, because she would smile before she'd do it..." she wipes a tear away, and reads her cards over and over again. She drops them nervously. "She was my family, the sister I never had... I miss you so much Sage.. " Carli can't hold it together as she finally releases everything. She clenches on to the tissues she's holding, she cries hard, you see her veins popping up from her neck. Everyone else patiently waiting, and crying also. "I'm going to take care of Conor and Savannah for her, because I know she would have wanted that. I just wish.. I could have told her how much I love her, and how sorry I truly am"

"Carli it's okay hun" Brian whispers as he gets up the podium to help Carli down. He holds her as she breaks down the 5th time this morning. Mykayla gets up and introduces herself, she's trying not to breakdown either.

"My sister would probably tell me not to cry, because I'd ruin my makeup" she makes the crowd chuckle a little as they wipe tears. "We didn't have the closest relationship growing up, but she was my role model. I wanted to be like her, but she told me to be better" she takes a pause to regain breathe, and she sniffles. "I remember she would have her friends over, and she'd let me hang out with them. Even if I was an annoying brat but she'd never anyone call me that. So many years apart but she would never let me forget how much she loves me. I wish we had more time together, because I still need her. I still need my big sister, I wish she was here so I could tell her that I got into Standford.. and I wouldn't have done it without her." She bursts crying, and she falls to the floor clinging onto an old collge Jersey of Sage. Her mom comes over, and holds Mykalya in her arms trying to control Mykaylas crying so she doesn't get a headache.

As people go up and share their experience and friendship with Sage. When the time is done, they put her casket in the dirt. It doesn't seem real to anyone, and some still deny she's no longer alive in this world. Connor and Savannah run to the casket as their moving down the hole.

"Mom!" They cry out, and Brian holds them before they fall into the hole.

"Don't leave us, you said you would never leave us" Connor cries out, and it makes everyone break. Carli holds him as he cries, Savannah is speechless as she watches the men shelving dirt on to the closed casket.

"Bye mommy, we'll miss you" she says before she starts crying, she runs to Tobin.

"This is your fault!" She hits Tobin angrily.
"You hurt her! And she died!" She hits Tobin on the chest, and she doesn't even fight the little girl back.

"I hate you" she tells Tobin before walking back to Carli, who is leading Connor into the car.

"She didn't mean that, she's just angry" Alex tells Tobin, and she nods. Alex and Tobin settled their differences because that's what Sage would have wanted. They hold each other, as they watch the casket being buried. They cry silently, as they share one thing in common. The impact that Sage left on their hearts. Wondering what they are suppose to do now? Without Sage.

"It'll be alright"

"How would you know Alex?"

"I don't, I just know it's what Sage would have said if she were here"

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"Hey Brian, we have to go pick the kids up from school" I tell my husband, and he nods. I'm home for the week, off national duty. I take the kids with me every now and then but I know school is more important. That's what Sage told me. No one has forgotten about her, in fact before every game we honor her. It doesn't fill the empty void in our hearts by her but it's enough for those 90 mins. We crack jokes and laugh, but deep down. We wish Sage was there laughing with us, with her contagious smile. It's been only 4 months, and we try to move with our lives but it's hard when we imagined moving into the future with Sage in the picture.