Wilder Dreams

Chapter 73

So this chapter will touch a little more into Sage and Mykayla's relationship. It involves old memories and recent interactions. It will let you have an insight on how Sage was as a big sister.

Mykayla POV

I couldn't believe what I was seeing, but I knew if god ever gave me the chance to see her one last time.. I wouldn't waste it. Not even half a second after she opened the door, I ran to her. Pushing teammates out of the way to hold my big sister. I tackle her, and her arms wrap around me.. I haven't felt at home in so long.. but being here with her brought everything back. One of the hardest parts about being Sage's death.. was not being able to say goodbye.

FLASHBACK

"Sometimes I want to be mad at you for getting on that stupid truck.. but how were we suppose to know that the last time we saw you would be the last.. and we didn't get to say goodbye. If anything I beat myself up about it.. I should have hugged you longer the last time you were in my arms.. you always said having to let something or someone go was hard but that I could still live on without it because life wouldn't put me through something I couldn't handle... you were so wrong" I bang on the grass over anger; that has grown over my sisters grave, the past year. I wipe my hand on my black jeans, I stand up and adjust the umbrella so my back wouldn't get wet. My flights leaving in an hour, so I should start heading out, wish I had more time.

"I'll tell you more later. Heaven isn't so far away right?.. I'll see you soon sis" I mumble with a slight crack in my voice, I brush my fingertips on her gravestone before I walk away.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Why did you leave me?" I choke on my words as the pain in my chest makes it way to my throat.. making it so hard to talk. Her hold around me tightens.

"I didn't mean too" she whispers as she sniffles.

Sage's PoV

My heart broke as soon as Mykayla ran into my arms. I was suppose to be here for her, protect her and guide her. I've always failed as a big sister, and to have left her..

"I'm so sorry Mykayla" I tell her as I start sobbing.

"It wasn't your fault.." she mumbles on my shoulder.

FLASHBACK

"Isn't she so beautiful?" My dad tells me as he puts my little sister in my hands. I finally got to hold her after so much anticipation, my sister's lungs weren't fully developed when she was born so she had to stay in the hospital for a while.

She opens her eyes, and they stare back at mine. Out of her curiosity, her hand stretches up and her tiny little finger pokes my chin. I flinch back a little, she starts giggling and drooling. Not going to lie, I wanted a little brother because I didn't want her going through the things girls have to go through. It was a tough world for women, and now she became my whole world. I have to take care of her, now and until forever.

"You gotta help your mom while I'm at work"  my dad tells me, and I nod as I try to fix her bib but her hand latched on my finger.

"Let go Mkay" I tell her and she wouldn't budge. In that moment, I knew she was going to be a handful when she grew up. I hand her the teddy bear I bought her, and she grabs it. We weren't the best with money, so I'd do some work around the neighborhood to buy my little sister clothes when there were yardsales. We can afford stuff, I just wanted to make sure Mykayla was never short on anything.

Forward to another flashback

"Sage your sister is being an annoying brat again" Jenny tells me as my sister tries to talk to her but the only thing that comes out is gibberish. My sister is 3, and she often feels left out when nobody talks to her.

"Don't call my sister an annoying brat" I spat at her, and I grab my little sisters hand as I aid her on to my lap so I can brush her hair.

"Whatever dude, my sister can be that way so I just leave her out of my room" Jenny tells me as she flips through a magazine. I don't know why I hang out with her. Probably cause I have no friends and she lives next door, oh and my parents are good friends with hers so.. yeah. Whatever her relationship is with her sister, it's definitely not going to be that way for me. I kiss my sisters head, and she starts giggling. Often I wonder why I had drifted so far away from her.. Why I let the anger I had towards my parents affect my relationship with her.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Just you said you'd never leave"

"I know Mkay... I know but I'm here.. you know I couldn't let you go through this thing called life, alone.."