Song: You Say- Lauren Daigle
Promise
It's been months since I talked to Ace. It was one hell of a roller coaster ride but... I'm here now! Still standing and I somehow feel whole again.
It isn't that easy to confront an abuser. It takes a lot of courage and bravery. I have to force myself a lot of times before finally doing it.
At ngayong nagawa ko na... napakalaking ginhawa ang nararamdaman ko. I finally let all my grudges out. Though he finally asked for forgiveness, I still want him to pay for what he did.
Iyon lang ang inasikaso namin nila Mommy sa loob ng dalawang buwan. I am glad that I no longer need to be in the trial. Si Gio na lamang ang kailangan doon para sa sinampa niyang kaso laban kay Ace.
Most domestic violence cases don't go on trial. Plus, we already gave enough evidence. Kahit si Tina ay tumestigo rin laban kay Ace.
Looking back, there are times where I thought... I could've left earlier. Or maybe... I could have tried to stay a little bit longer. But in the end, I think I left when I already had to.
Leaving an abusive relationship is harder than you think. Ace completely fed me up with his twisted version of the reality that's why I lost touch with mine.
Easy for people to say that I'm stupid enough to give Ace a lot of chances. That I'm out of my mind because I keep on telling that I will leave him but I never did not until Gio decided to get involved.
But try putting yourself in my shoes and see. Paano kung ikaw 'yung tinutukan ng baril sa sentido at wala kang magawa para man lang ipaglaban ang sarili mo? Paano kung ikaw ang paulit-ulit na saktan at wala kang magawa para man lang makaganti sakanya?
I know Ace is much stronger than me. And trust me... I did try to protect myself. Pero sa tuwing ginagawa ko iyon, mas malala ang nagiging kapalit.
I left just in time to seek for peace... for healing... and for a better life. I left to find myself again and to express myself as freely as I'd like to.
All that matters to me now is this freedom. It took me a long time before I could finally have this that's why I'm never letting this one go.
Kinuha agad ni Gio ang kamay ko nang makababa kami ng kanyang sasakyan. Today, we're having dinner together with his whole family. It's my first time meeting some of his relatives that's why I am really excited for this.
Nginitian ko siya at tsaka hinawakan ang kanyang braso habang patungo kami sa entrada ng kanilang mansyon. He mentioned to me a while ago that this was his grandparents' house. Nagpupunta lamang sila dito sa tuwing may malaki silang handaan.
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Lost and Found (Donovan Series #5)
RomanceIn life, we are bound to lose people that are not meant for us... that's why I did not regret losing him. TW: this story contains theme about domestic violence