In life, we are bound to lose people that are not meant for us... that's why I did not regret losing him.
TW: this story contains theme about domestic violence
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Song: Rush- Lewis Capaldi ft. Jessie Reyez
Proposal
He noticed it. He fucking saw the bruises on my arm.
Natatakot kong inangat ang tingin sakanya. He's looking at me with horror in his face, mukhang hindi makapaniwala sa nakita.
"Who did that to you?!" he asked angrily.
Sinubukan niya namang muling tingnan iyon pero hindi ko siya hinayaan. He tried to reach for it but I already backed away from him.
Nakikiusap na ang mga mata niya sa akin. He tried to reach for me again but I didn't let him. I wanted so bad to tell him that it was nothing. But I couldn't lie. Tila ba naputulan ako ng dila at hindi ko magawang magsalita.
I wasn't even prepared for this to happen. Hindi ko akalain na mangyayari 'to.
"Is that the reason why you're in pain a while ago?" his forehead creased now.
I feel like he's patching things up until everything makes sense. Hindi talaga siya titigil hangga't hindi niya nalalaman ang totoo ano?
Since he's already very observant of me, sana napapansin niya rin na ayokong pag-usapan 'yon. I hope he'll give me space about that matter because I'm not ready to talk about it!
I'm still scared. I feel like I'll be forever terrified of talking about it. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako magkakaroon ng lakas para sabihin ang tungkol doon.
I feel embarrassed about myself because I know I've done something wrong that's why I ended up with an abusive partner. I'm afraid that I will be judged if I try to speak up.
I kept my mouth shut because Ace already made me believe that I've got no one else but him. That I have no one else to run to...
Pinaniwala niya ako na walang maniniwala sa akin kapag sinabi ko sa mga kaibigan ko ang tungkol sa nangyayari sa akin. He managed to cloud my mind with all those things.
Iyon din ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nahihirapan akong sabihin kay Briella ang tungkol dito. She may be my best friend but I'm still afraid of what she'll think. I feel like she won't believe me. Nahihiya ako.
She was one of those people who told me not to choose him but I didn't listen. Natatakot akong ipamukha niya sa akin iyon. At sa huli, wala paring ibang dapat sisihin kung hindi ako.
"This is nothing." Sabi ko. "You didn't see anything."
Hindi makapaniwala niya akong tiningnan. He shakes his head, refusing to believe what he heard from me.
"I saw it clearly, Zaj! Those are... those are bruises! That is not nothing. Is that what you're hiding huh? Is he abusing-"
"I already told you! This is nothing!" pagpupumilit ko.
