Someone That I left Behind

Guilty

Joong

The danger about memory was, it made you wanted to crawl and be miserable.

I wanted to tell P'Mhee, no, I was not dumb.

I realized a long time ago, that what I had with Nine was something.

I wanted to use my immaturity as an excuse, but that didn't change the fact that I hurt Nine.

I felt hurt so I hurt him back. I carelessly thought that we could always made up later, as we always did when things went wrong.

I was so confident that no matter what, I could come back and things would be back to where they used to be.

Our relationship needed no label. Our personalities were so different, yet we were happy.

I was open, he was guarded.

I was possessive, he wanted freedom.

I was sensitive, he purposely provoked.

We fought a lot, but also made up fast.

We stated the rules and yet broke them.

We defy privacy, and share everything.

The pattern was repeated and accepted, our world revolved around one another.

Until came the day when the pattern was broken, our schedules started to mismatch.

We missed each other but got no time.

We met new people more in a larger circle.

We fought harder and took longer to back down.

We were hanging by a thread. He tried to tie it back and pull us to safety.

Yet I cut the end and break loose.

I found someone new.

So, P'Mhee, no, I was not dumb. I was guilty.