Louder Than Bombs

Chapter 13: Tattoo

A/N: Shout out to the person who reads the chapters as soon as I post them, you really my day ten times better! 💜

*Severely unedited*

Tae's P.O.V

He's so fucking stupid! It's been a week since I ended things with Jungkook and honestly I still think he's being fucking stupid. He just doesn't know what he wants and that alone is dangerous but with me having an actual crush on him it hurt a lot more than I thought when he said he didn't love me like how he loves Nayeon...I mean yeah she's his girlfriend but like fuck I just...I don't know..He couldn't even lie to me and say that he would maybe break up with her. I just needed some hope that eventually he wouldn't be with her anymore...

Anyway in the last week we haven't talked much and I have been spending time with Lucas, telling him about what happened seeing as if I told Jimin he would kill Jungkook. I noticed that Jungkook has been trying to trap me and talk with me but I always get out of it, I'm clever remember? As far as the mission goes the location that Kai told us is pretty exclusive which means that Jimin, Hobi and Yoongi are taking this mission which is probably best seeing as I don't want to be near Kook right now.

"Taebear I love you but we need some space to rest for the mission tomorrow. Why don't you just hang out with Jungkook seeing as you two are so close."

"Aha, I think he's working out right now..."

Not a lie, I saw him creep down the stairs like 30 minutes ago

"Well that never stopped you from going down there before."

His tone was much sharper than his words, I made the right choice ending the thing we were doing

"It's fine I'll just rest in our room"

I leave the room and make my way to the room, dreading the return of Jungkook. I lay on our now separated beds and send Lucas s text asking if he wants to hangout in like a hour but he says that he has to work.

Fuck my life.

I decide to just turn on a movie and ignore Kook when he comes in, yeah just ignore him Taehyung. You can ignore the shit out of him

I hear the door creak open and lo and behold the dickface walks through the door with his earbuds in and sweat dripping down his neck. His shirt is drenched making it stick to every fucking muscle on his well-sculpted body.

Did I really make the right decision?

Just fucking ignore him Taehyung, you got this

He looks at me and I flicker my eyes back to the TV

"Whatcha watching?"

Fuck you, is what I'm watching

I don't respond and he leaves to go to the bathroom. I release a sigh of relief immediately because holy fuck it took every inch of will power to not pounce on him like a tiger.

As soon as I think I'm in the clear and can breathe normally, fifteen minutes later he comes back in the room from the bathroom, shirtless, dripping wet hair covering his eyes with a towel wrapped very loosely around his waist.

Are you kidding me?!

"Hey Tae?"

I don't respond and keep my eyes on the movie

"I got a new tattoo on my back but I'm not sure if it's setting well, can you check for me?"

I roll my eyes, not moving from my spot, which only ends up making it worse seeing as he's now moving closer to my bed

"Listen, I know I messed up ok? And I respect your decision to not fuck but we're still best friends and right now I really need you to check this out for me, it hurts bad."

Ok he has a point I mean we still have to work together and share a damn room...

"Fine, but you still fucking suck and I'm still pissed at you."

I move off the bed and go around to his back which is still has water droplets from the shower he took. The tattoo on his back is a boat steering wheel? The fuck?

"Its the Wheel of Dharma, it's suppose to be a symbol of guidance and help people reach the state Nirvana or like ultimate peace"

Oh, so now you want peace?

"It looks nice but it's red, like hot chili pepper red. Where's the cream?"

He hands me the cream and I take a minute to really look at this tattoo. It's a literal work of art, the detail in it is beautiful and I can't help but stare at the way the ink emphasized the already prominent muscles he has. I miss making scratches down his back and hearing him groan at the sensation..

Keep it together Taehyung. Keep it together!

I start applying the cream on the and as soon as I do he flinches making me only press harder while putting it on the redden skin

"Taehyung what the fuck?! Stop pressing so fucking hard!

"Oops, sorry maybe you should have asked Nayeon seeing as you love her"

He pulls away from me and faces me pushing his now damp hair from his face, revealing his eyes that have a hint of hurt in them

"Why are you being so petty? I told you the truth Taehyung, do you want me to lie to you?!"

"Yes"

Well, so much for keeping it together.

He looks at me for a minute, and his expression is unreadable. Oh god I'm just regretting all my life choices right now.

"Ok."

What?

"What?"

He starts walking closer making me freeze on the spot, what the hell is he doing?

"I'll lie to you Tae. Tell me what you want me to say.." His voice is so low that it sends vibrations through my body

I'm so sorry Taehyung, I tried to salvage our dignity

I wrap my arms around his neck as his hand find a spot on my waist

"Tell me that you'll break up with Nayeon"

He looks down and I feel him about to pull away but I tighten the grip on the back of his neck

"Please, Kook..it's the only way I can do this with you"

He looks me directly in my eyes and I felt my heart rate quicken and my stomach do a backflip..

"I'll break up with Nayeon..."

I feel a wave of relief wash over me, even though I know that he won't do it, hearing him say it gives me some confidence that this will be ok in the end

Even though it won't..

A/N: So things are going to get very messy and I hope you will enjoy the mess with me! I might wait a bit to update this book again so I can focus on finishing HOC. Thank you for reading, love you all and stay safe!

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~Nilla💜