Louder Than Bombs

Chapter 32: Water

*unedited*

JK's POV

I take off my shoes at the door quietly hoping no one was awake yet..

"Why do I feel like a dad watching their kid sneak in late?"

Jin's voice sound from the kitchen. I was just going to go upstairs and act like I didn't hear him but I should've known he wouldn't let me

"So do you plan on telling me why my Tae Tae was crying last night? Because I sure as hell know that you have been spending lots of time at Nayeon's place and when you are here you and Taehyung don't speak to each other."

I can't believe no one told him..

I walk into the kitchen with my head hanging a little and take a seat at the counter while Jin continued cooking what looked like lunch for today

"Do you want the full story? Like from the beginning?"

He puts down the knife he was using to give me a what-do-you-think look

"No Jungkook I want half of the story.."

I roll my eyes before clearing my throat and talking

"It started a couple months back, me and Tae had just gotten back from the mission with the book from Chan..I went back to the room after giving the book to Joon and I heard him..."

I look up at Jin to see what was appropriate and not

"We're both adults here..we can speak freely, just not too freely"

I nod and continue

"I heard him moaning but he wasn't jerking off..it was..well I'm sure you can guess..anyways after seeing that it was all I could think about...even when I was Nayeon it just never seemed to satiate the urge I had when I saw him. So eventually we kissed and after is when things started getting heated. At first it started out as sex and me trying to figure out if I was something other than straight... honestly I wasn't thinking about Nayeon or how this would make Tae feel in the end. But we were having sex for a while and it was amazing I'm not going to lie..but I didn't notice how attached we got to each other...we've always been touchy and it just got worse to the point where we'd always sleep in the same bed, we'd be holding hands for no reason or just wanting to be cuddled up without even trying to go to sleep..we'd do small things for each other...well more like Tae did small things for me but I just found myself admiring everything about him..I had to stay with Nayeon for a week due to Chan threatened her but in that time I missed him so much..even though I would be back in the morning for training I would still really miss his warmth at night, Nayeon wasn't enough for me..then me and him got into some arguments about how I didn't want him to see other people while we were having sex.."

"Hold on...so you had the nerve to tell him he can't sleep with people while you had a whole ass girlfriend?"

"I know it's fucked up ok? Let me finish..so anyway we made up after that but I think that's where things started shifting like we had argued before but this one felt different in my opinion...It was when I actually felt like this situation wasn't just about sex and that scared me because all the feelings I have for him I haven't had them this strongly before...anyways we went back to how we were before but at this point we'd start being more affectionate and emotionally invested. It was like I would think about being with him in anyway all the time...we could just be sitting next to each other and I would feel happy that he was in my presence..which made me even more confused about everything, which eventually led to Namjoon talking to me about how I was screwing with people's feelings and usually I would brush off what anyone else said but with us being more emotionally involved I understood what he was saying...so about a week ago I cut it off with Taehyung...and it was the hardest thing I've done in my twenty-three years of living. Killing a person would be easier than seeing the look on his face when I told him that we could no longer be intimate...so that along with his nightmares are what keeps him crying at night..."