Louder Than Bombs

Chapter 17: Cheating

*unedited*

Jimin's P.O.V

*Same day but at night*

"This is so fucking stupid!"

I pace back to the other side of the room then back to the bed where Yoongi and Hoseok are sitting

"Minnie you don't know their situation ok? Maybe Joon has a plan?" Hobi tries to soothe me but it only results in more invasive thoughts about not only them but Taehyung and Jungkook.

It's like everyone is playing this sick game and they're ok with it, completely unaware of how other people will have to cope with that type of pain..

"Jimin he's right we only know what he's telling us, but what if there are other things at play here that we aren't aware of?"

Yoongi chimes in reaching for my hand, but I ignore it and continue pacing back and forth in the room we share

"But what about Jungkook, hm?"

They both sigh, I've been telling them about the situation since I found out

"Jimin what happens with Jungkook and Taehyung isn't any of your business.."

"Wow Yoongi..so we're just not being decent human beings and caring if someone get hurt?"

He gets up and moves towards me taking my hands in his softly

"Minnie, we care but they are two grown-ass adults and they will have to deal the consequences of their actions"

Hobi gets up and back hugs Yoongi and looks me directly in the eyes

"He's right Jimin..you know he is"

"But what about Nayeon...what about her? Who is looking out for her?"

"Jimin, Nayeon is not Lisa.."

As soon as he said her name my heart stopped...panic began rising in my chest

"You don't know that..no one really knows until you-"

"Stop, it's only gonna make you feel worse..baby you gotta let that go-" Yoongi cuts me off

I break away from their grip and run my fingers through my hair in frustration. I know they're trying to help but nothing can stop the daily guilt and panic I feel about what happened.

"I can't let it go...guys s-she was there and then she wasn't..it's -"

"Not anyone's fault, she probably had other things going on..you don't know what was going on with her personal life..she might have had other factors that led her to do that but Minnie we need to talk about this because it's clearly still haunting you."

I look at my two boyfriends and nod before sitting on the bed with them joining me on each side, they wait for me to talk. They've always been so patient with me.

"I don't think it's that simple for me to just think of other causes..anytime I think about it it's like I'm right back there arguing with her about me going to a club and dancing with Chaeyoung(Rose). She was pissed and I kept downplaying it, telling her she was being delusional, but in all honesty she was dead-on but with the wrong person...I had started sleeping with Seulgi. It was horrible when she actually found us together in our bed, I don't know why we thought that was a good idea but she walked in on us and I saw the life leave her body the moment she saw me. That week was awful everyday she would come by to pick some more of her things and each time she looked worse. I should have realized that she was spiraling, that things were getting progressively worse in her life, because of me...the last time we spoke before the..incident..she was so thin and her eyes had turned so red like she was straining all the time because she couldn't sleep. Her words were minimal and her voice was so soft like she had just given up on even trying..and then like two days later she didn't show up to get the last of her things but I didn't think too much of it, that is until I got the call...Jisoo, who she had been staying with, called me because she had found her..."

You'd think I would be crying right now but no I can only feel panic, like how I felt when I got the call. That's all it ever is, pure panic.

I take a deep breath and continue speaking to the two males

"I just don't want Jin or Nayeon to do what Lisa did...and sometimes I worry about Taehyung too, I see how attached he is to Jungkook and I just really hope that they both or Kook at least will come to the conclusion this is wrong and will end up hurting the people you love most."

Yoongi and Hoseok don't say anything once I finish, they instead lay back on the bed and pat the space in the middle for me to join them, I crawl in between them and they wrap me in a warm sandwich hug.

"We love you and I think that you should talk to Taehyung about your concerns but don't lecture him, just talk to him he'll understand if you let it be a two sided conversation."

I hear Hoseok's voice in my left ear, I hum in agreement and then we're all silent letting sleep take hold of us.

A/N: I'm sorry if this chapter wasn't as smooth I wrote really choppy like. I know it's short as hell but I wanted this part to just be about why Jimin hates cheating and like his experience with it. I will update again soon, thank you all for reading love you all soooo much!!

~Nilla💜