Louder Than Bombs

Chapter 29: Tears

* so unedited*

A/N: I wasn't planning on having a whole smut scene but it just happened lol. please skip it if you're not comfortable💜

Tae's POV

It's been two days since we turned over TXT to Chan and the mood in the house has never been more stale. Jin still wasn't home yet and that was the main reason why Namjoon couldn't sleep at night. Jungkook has been acting weird since the mission like not only did he ask me to cuddle him but the day after he only wanted kisses and each time I'd try to take it further he'd get pissed...so yeah refusing to have sex?? Very weird for him..

I've been talking to Lucas about it because Jimin makes me feel like shit every time we talk about it.. He says that maybe Kook is just trying to distance himself from the pure physical aspect of our relationship to 'build a deeper connection' but that doesn't sound like him I mean we've had plenty of late night talks and days were we just goof off but adding the physical attraction to it makes it feel more like a relationship and I think that scares the fuck out of him..

Right now we're laying together just talking about the last couple of days and I can't even focus because I keep staring at his bare chest..

"Taehyung! Are you even listening?!" His voice snaps me back to reality

"Sorry Kook I just can't focus.." I look him directly in the eye then flicker down to his chest to give him a hint, which he gets

"Tae...I'm not in the mood for it right now.."

I sigh heavily and flop backwards on the bed

"What is up with you? You tell me that you like me and things were great, but since the day of the mission you've been so fucking distant..Does it have something to do with Joon?" The annoyance in my voice was clear

I miss the way he touches me and without him being like that it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong..which sounds so stupid but I can't help it

"Tae I just don't want to have sex right now.."

He's hiding something from me..

"But why? It's like this everytime I even hint at it, you completely shut me down. I feel like don't understand. Jungkook talk to me..please"

I sit up and move to where he was leaned up against the headboard and straddle him..He exhales sharply and runs his hand through his hair before cupping my face rubbing small circles on my cheeks..

"I just don't want to keep leading you on when I have Nayeon...I don't want you to be hurt Taehyung.."

I can't say that him saying this didn't hurt because it did...like hell..but I need him in my life..even if there's no hope for us going forward..

"Namjoon got in your head didn't he?"

I lace my fingers in his long black hair and he pulls me closer while nodding slowly

"Kookie you can't let him..I know that...we'll never actually be together and I signed up that so as nice as it feels when you compliment me and tell me that you like me I always keep in mind that..you'll always be with Nayeon at the end of the day.."

It was hard keeping myself together while saying that but it's true..Jungkook will choose Nayeon because he's so use to having the picture of the ideal family in his head, it's not his fault but that's just how he's lived his life..

"Taehyung why not date someone? I mean Lucas likes you and he is somewhat attractive-."

"I don't want to date anyone..I have you..at least for right now..and I good with that.."