It's Not Cool | Jonas Brothers

Chapter 79

Kevin's P.O.V.
I was really unsure about letting Nick read all the notes. He wrote a lot of stuff in there and some things he might not remember, but would after reading them. I didn't want him to remember some of that stuff, because whether I liked it or not, it could send him right back into that state.

The state in which he hated himself, wasn't taking care of himself while slowly inflicting harm on himself by overdosing on insulin.

I'll always be scared to lose him. I've already lost him once, I got him back and I don't want to lose him again.

I felt nauseous and my hands were shaking. My throat was dry from sobbing. My heart was racing.

That's how I felt when I find out. I found out he overdosed. He told me so in the letter.

He explained how he did it in the greatest details. I'll always remember it. It's written right in front of my eyes. I clung to his hand when I was allowed to see him. My vision clouded by tears.

I never want to experience that again. I still wanna reminisce it. I want to remember it. I still think about it sometimes. I think of the night like it happened yesterday, even though I know it's so distant.

Joe is still testing him during the nights. He still has to wake him up to make him eat when he's low. I know he's not going to move out soon. At least not by himself. He himself might be ready, but his disease is long not ready for it.

I hate it. I want his disease to be ready for it. I don't want his disease to take over his life like that. He deserves to have it easy sometimes. He struggles all the time. He deserves a win every once in a while.

I understand life's not easy on him. All he does is lose. I hate that I can't help him with that.

We burned them. The notes. I gave Nick the envelopes, containing all the notes.

I forgot to mention that mine was empty. He wanted to burn all the notes. We were all there. Everyone cried.

I forgot to mention that mine kept a blank paper. I wasn't ready to give mine up yet. I know I promised him I was, but I wasn't. I thought it over quite a lot, but my mind won. I'm keeping it somewhere safe from people's eyes. To not be found so easily. I couldn't do it. I couldn't give it up yet.

On another note, I'm going to be a dad real soon.

We're still in the middle of a storm with a lot of cold and a lot of snow, but it can happen any minute now. We're more than ready to be parents for our little girl.

We're going to have a girl. We told our families like we promised we would and they were over the moon.

We are once again gathered at my parents home while Danielle was over to her parents. We decided to split for the day as it seemed easier to do.

We needed a day to detox after all the serious events that happened last year and last week with the notes and all. What I forgot to mention was that we fought a lot last week. Nick was ready to let go, I was sort of ready to let go, but Joe wasn't ready to let go. We hadn't given him any notice and felt quite overwhelmed in the moment by all of it.

At some point I received a phone call. The phone call.

"Hello?" I answered obliviously.

"It's begun. We're taking her to the hospital." Danielle's mom said happily through the phone. I scrambled myself up from my lounged position on the couch. "What?" Yeah right, like I didn't understand what she said.

She repeated what she said and I'm sure my eyes lit up.

Everyone looked confused as I hung up the phone.

"It's going to happen. I'm going to be a dad." I burst into happy tears as Pippa attacked me from the side. She was sitting next to me after all.

"I'm going to get my baby girl." I cry.

"Let's go! Don't be lazy! You've got to get your ass up from that couch and move along!" Joe pulled me up from the couch and into the car. I don't remember much of it, not taking my thoughts away from what's going to happen.

We drove to the hospital and met up with Danielle's family. "How is she? Where is she?" I bombarded them with questions. Her sister took me to Danielle's room where she and her mom are. Her mom gave me a hug and they left me alone with Danielle.

A couple of tough hours later, we were high up in the clouds. We've become parents to a beautiful little baby girl.

Alena Rose Jonas

That's how we named her. Our beautiful daughter. They first placed her in my wife's arms as I sat next to her and adored our baby girl. They then took her away for some quick tests.

Danielle is tired. The birth giving was intense. "You go get some sleep. I'm going to tell our families we have a healthy, beautiful baby girl." We kissed and watched her fall asleep.

I smiled and stood up. I left the room and made my way down towards the waiting room where Danielles dad was pacing the room. He stopped when I entered. Everyone looked up, all with questionable looks on their faces.

"We welcome our beautiful, healthy baby girl Alena Rose Jonas into the world." I announce.

Everyone went crazy. Stood up, hugged each other. Breathed heavily from relief that everything went well and that everyone is healthy. This is a moment I'm never, ever going to forget. These are the things I want to grow old with. The happy memories.

I went back and sat next to my wife and the crib with our Alena Rose Jonas.

I am so sorry this story has come to an end. I hope you liked it, I hope you enjoyed it and thank you for reading this story and for all of your comments and votes. It really means the world to me!

If you want to know what happens with Pippa, her brothers and their family, go read the sequel Hold On To Him. It'll be a direct continuation to this story.

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