My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 10~

NESSA'S POV

I woke up in a weird position and realized that I was on the floor next to Avani after our movie night and carefully got up to go make us all pancakes. While I was cooking I couldn't stop thinking that maybe what happened yesterday was my fault. I mean what if I had just shut him down the first second on the plane. I was just being nice but maybe its my fault Charli got hurt.

Then Jaden came in and he looked upset. He sat down at the table and put his head in his hands "you okay" I asked him he didn't answer "Jaden earth to Jaden" he looked up at me "We broke up" I looked at him "oh Um I'm so sorry what happened" "I don't know I just we were talking and she started saying how maybe we weren't ready and then I started agreeing and then next thing I know I broke up with her and I just don't know what I was doing but it's over" I gave him a sympathetic look put the pancakes in the counter with a not for the girls and ran upstairs to Mads.

I walked in Jaden's room and she was sitting on his bed staring at the wall. I went up and hugged her "are you alright" "uh yeah I think so I just I love him so much and I always will and I guess I felt like I needed space from him but at the same time I didn't and then he broke up with me and-" all of the sudden she went silent and then started crying.

We just sat there hugging and I was comforting her the best I could "Nessa Im gonna go home and visit my family for a week or so is that okay with you?" I was sad that she was leaving but I knew that if it was going to make her feel better I would do anything "if that's what you want of course" "there's a flight in 4 hours I wanna go then" I nodded and helped her pack up her stuff we went downstairs and she said goodbye to everyone the girls were all sad and Olivia looked like she might cry but when Mads got to Jaden I noticed that their way of looking at each other changed Mads looked empty and Jaden looked like he regretted his decision.

I drove her to the airport and we got Starbucks on the way when we were saying goodbye I started crying I couldn't help it "I love you so much Mads and I want you to be happy and just know that no matter what I'm hear always" she hugged my tight "I love you too biotch always" we laughed and she went to wait for her flight and I drove home.

When I got there Josh suggested we go out to the beach just us I agreed and got ready

After I was ready we took an Uber and laid a blanket on the sand while we ate in and out that we ordered. "Nessa are you okay with everything that happened yesterday with Chase" I didn't answer I just looked down "Baby you know you can talk to me" I paused and then it all came flooding out "It was my fault when I met him on the plane I should have told him to get away I shouldn't have talked to him I should have ignored him I'm so fucking stupid why did I let him talk to me I'm the reason Charli got hurt" some tears fell down my face

"You are not stupid and nothing that happened was your fault okay you did nothing wrong Chase is a bad person and he hurt Charli not you" he wiped my tears away and hugged me while we looked at the water.

After a while we decided to watch a movie on my laptop and we chose to watch Teen Beach Movie "This is so unrealistic" he said "it's not supposed to be realistic" I laughed "it's a Disney Musical not a documentary Joshua" he kissed my forehead and we cuddled while we finished watching.

It was now night time so we took an Uber back to sway and when we got there everyone was down stairs and the boys were playing video games, Kio Bryce and Jaden, while Olivia and Addison did each other's hair, Dixie griffin Anthony and Avani were at the hype house. "oh hey Nessa Wessa how was your date" Olivia asked me "It was good" I laughed and Josh went to join the boys and I sat with the girls. "Hows Charli" I asked Addison "She isn't great but she'll be okay it just takes time" I nodded and told them "brb imma call Mads and see how she is she should have landed by now" "tell her I say hi and that I miss her" Olivia told me "me too" Addison yelled while I was walking away I walked upstairs to the balcony and she answered right away

"Hey" "Hey how was the flight" "boring" she laughed "are you okay" "yeah it's good to be home and see my mom and stuff I miss you so much already but I just need to get away from Jaden to clear my head" "I miss you too oh and so do Addison and Olivia they say hi" "well tell them I saw hi too" we talked for about 30 minutes just laughing and talking like we always do "well I'm gonna get some sleep Nessa" "okay goodnight wife" "goodnight" we laughed and she hung up.

I posted a tik tok and went back to the girls. When I looked at my comments the top comment was "homewrecker" I stared at my phone what this cant be happening how did they know I mean nothing happened I immediately checked tik tok room Chase had tweeted "some girls will do anything to ruin a relationship" and everyone was tagging me in the comments. I was horrified the tears started to fall and I ran upstairs I threw my phone on the bed and went into the bathroom slamming and locking the door. I sank to the floor. This is all my fault god damnit Nessa why do you do this you don't belong here now what will people think how will they see you. You are a homewrecker and now no matter what you say even tho nothing happened that's all you'll be because Chase said something first.

The steady tear streams were falling off my face and I was staring in the mirror at myself. How can Josh want you. How can anyone. All you ever do is ruin everything. Then I heard a knock "Nessa baby please open the door" I didn't answer "I saw and you know it's not true okay cmon please let me in" I just stared at the door I can't let him see me like this. Broken. Stupid. Useless. Nessa pull yourself the fuck together.

I unlocked the door hesitantly and he opened it and looked at me. I was fighting the tears so hard but when he hugged me I couldn't hold them back. He just comforted me while we sat on the floor. "What am I supposed to do" "we tell the truth Nessa" "what do you mean like the screenshots" "me and Bryce have a plan" I looked at him and then we stayed like that for awhile. I didn't ask any questions cause I didn't know if I wanted to know. So we just sat there and eventually laid down and went to sleep. Oh god what will this become.