My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 39~

NESSAS POV

If there's anything good this breakup has brought me is real friends. I know who I can trust and who really loves me now.

I've gotten really close to Olivia, Mads, Lauren, Cynthia, Madi, and Darianka. They are all really supportive and somehow I got really close to the hype house. Not really sure how that happened. Me and Chase are friends now and on pretty good terms. I haven't really seen Josh too much. When I did it was at group events but I don't know I just want to take advantage of my time away from him and meet new people.

Me and Mads were hanging out today and then tomorrow me, lauren, and Olivia were gonna hang out. These girls are the only reason I don't cry everyday.

Me and Mads don't live together anymore she comes and stays with me but goes home a lot so I moved into a one bedroom. It's lonely but I know my girls are there whenever I need them. I think Josh is okay. I haven't heard that he isn't and I guess maybe it's best that I don't know. Stop thinking about him Ness.

Mads walked in and said "heyyyy were going to the hype house they have snakes" she said excitedly" I laughed "alright then off we go" I was wearing green shorts and a white yoga bra and Mads drove a there.

"Ello loves" I said walking in and Mia gave me and Mads a hug. "Oh Jesus" I said looking at all the boxes of snakes. "I gotta come here more often" Mads said running towards the snakes excitedly. I laughed and shook my head and sat next to Indiana "not my thing really" she told me "same" we laughed and watched Mads hold them.

They said they were scaring Charli. Charli. About Charli. We kinda grew apart after tour I guess. We stopped talking as much, were still friends but she's back in Chase mode I guess always with him and when she's not she is just more distant with some people especially the "sway" crowd after all the issues. It's whatever though I still love her but I can tell she doesn't like me as much.

They brought her in blindfolded and we all videoed it while she screamed at the snake and Chase comforted her. I miss having someone to do that for me. Oh yeah I kinda did one of those things where you do everything you've wanted too when you go through a breakup. Uh let's see I got lip fillers, four tattoos, and died my hair and got extensions. I can't deny I look a little different but I like it I don't wanna be old Nessa anymore.

I waved to Charli and she waved back and I went and hung out with Jack, Mads, Alex, and Kouvr. I honestly don't know how they all became my friends. I guess I can't really be at sway anymore so they took me in sorta. I still have hope that one day me and Josh will be together again but I don't think that will be soon.

"You okay Nessa" Alex asked me. "Oh yeah I'm good I'm just gonna go to the bathroom" they nodded and I left and sat in there. I got up and looked in the mirror. I mean I was pretty. I thought that someone might want me when me and Josh broke up but my sex life left the chat. Everyone just kinda watches what they say around me like if they mention him I'll shatter like glass or something.

I really wish they'd stop doing that it's so fucking annoying. I'm not a box marked fragile I know he exsists still and for some reason I almost want to prove to him that I'm okay and that I'm strong but so far I don't think it's working. I haven't seen him in a weekish. I guess it's for the best.

I'd been in there for a while and when I walked out. Speak of the devil. This will be fun.

JOSH'S POV

There she was. She walked out of the bathroom. Damn. I haven't seen her in a week how the hell can someone change that much in a week. I know she got her fillers and her hair done but somehow she got 100x hotter. Fuck I'm staring. I quickly looked away and gave thomas a bro hug and went back to filming my video. I gotta just let her be.