My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 40~

NESSAS POV

Well here's the long story. I woke up to decorations everyone and the girls eating breakfast so I went to join them "HAPPY FUCKING FORTH OF JULY" paper screamed coming down the stairs naked and Alex was Filming him. "There's the hype house good morning" Mia said and we all laughed and nodded in agreement.

We got changed into our red swimsuits, took some photos, made some tik toks, ya know the usual. Then all the off social media stuff started to go down.

Music blasting, fireworks, drinking, everyone was there having a really good time. People who were in relationships well let's just say the PDA was very much happening.

I hate being single so much. If I had Josh today would have been great but I don't. I spent most of the day with Olivia, Lauren, and Darianka sulking in our singleness. Cynthia was with us but she ended up with Quinton and Mads with Jaden. "Well girls how bout we go inside and raid rylands vodka stash" I suggested and they all followed. I tapped ryland a shoulder and he gave me the key to the room where he kept it.

We got the bottle out and spit it in four Micheal walked past and said "don't worry I won't snitch" we laughed and continued to drink and laugh and watch everyone make down decisions while we sat on the hot tub.

Today wasn't really where things went wrong. No today was great. Tomorrow we'll that's a different story. I woke up in a bed with Lauren and we were cuddling. "Adorable" Olivia said laying on top of us. "Come on you gotta get up" she told us "it's 12" I sighed and pulled lauren up and we put on some random sweatshirts not sure whose they're were.

"Y'all raid the random hoodie bin" Thomas asked and we nodded "nobody knows whose they are" Mia said "they just appear and I wash them" I laughed "that's kinda sad" she nodded "yes yes it is"

I sat down on the couch for a while with Darianka until she left and I went upstairs to find Lauren. I went into Someone room but it was just Chase in there. "Oh sorry" I said walking back out. "No Nessa your fine" he said and I turned back around. "What's up" I asked him. "Nothing really just bored" I laughed a little kind of forced and we talked for a bit.

My mind was wandering to Josh. What would he think. Me and Chase talking like friends. Would he be disappointed? Would he be mad? Would he be sad? "Nessa you okay" he asked me snapping me out of it. "Yeah Im good why" I said "cause I know what it's like to miss someone." He told me. I could feel a lump in my throat the one before you start crying. "Yeah It's just hard sometimes to think about everything" I told him and he put his hand in mine.

Okay this is a little weird but I was too distracted by my thoughts then he kissed me. HE FUCKING KISSED ME. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. I processed it for a second and then I broke away "Chase.." I said. He looked down "Nessa it's just you seemed so lonely and I thought" "no no you thought wrong this" I pointed at us "isn't gonna happen I'm sorry I have to go"

I walked out grabbed my purse and bag with my clothes, gave Mia, Olivia, Lauren, Alex, and Thomas all a hug in the main area and walked towards the door. They looked confused. I walked towards the door and Dixie came in "hey Ness" she said giving me a hug. Dixie, me and her had become really good friends. Shit. Charli. I can't do this I gotta get out go here. "I'm going to see Charli" I heard Chase say behind me.

I'm ran out the door and too my car. "What do I do what do I do what do I do" I said to myself. I texted Mads.

Mads🤍🥴💕

Mads I need help I messed up big time

What going on what happened

Chase kissed me and maybe I let him honestly I don't know but I don't know what to do

You and Chase kissed?