My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 53~

NESSAS POV

Sarah left out of no where are Josh stood there staring at Noah. We locked eyes for a second but I never knew how long a second could be.

Am I wrong? Am I making a mistake? No I'm not. He hurt me. That was my final choice to end it and it was the right one.

"Why'd Sarah go" Bryce asked Josh. "Oh we decided we weren't gonna work out so we're just friends again" he explained to everyone.

Already? Wow. That was fast. I can't say I wasn't expecting it but I just can't tell if I'm happy about it or not. Noah and the other boys went back to sway, Bryce Blake Griffin and Quinton, and I was hanging out with Mads, Avani, Olivia, and Darianka.

"Nessa can i talk to you" Josh whispered and I got chills. I nodded and I went into his room. "What do you want to talk about" I asked him. "Do you really love Noah, like him even?" He asked me. "Maybe not love but yeah I like him why" I answered. "I just don't get it. Why now. Why him. Why not tell me you left. Why be done with me." He said.

"Because you got with some strippers and then some random girl and then you started dating her" I told him shocked he even had to ask. "Why is this time different why won't you forgive me" he asked me with those sad eyes. "Because I just can't okay. I've done too much forgiving and letting it go and letting people walk all over me and I just can't do it anymore" I said getting worked up. "Nessa you know I messed up and you know I feel bad please just let me fix this I can't stay away from you. I can't not be with you. Your everything I've ever wanted and the best thing I've ever had and I'm not going to let some stupid mistake I made drunk at a party ruin that"

I snapped. "I hate you" I said and he looked so hurt. "I hate you. I hate that I can stand here looking at you knowing you hurt me but still love you. I hate that I can't get over you. I hate that I lost everything. I hate that I'm all alone. I hate that I let you go. I hate that I want to do what I want to do right now. Most of all I hate myself for everything I've done"

"Nessa I don't understand you don't need to hate yourself just hate me that's fine but don't blame yourself. Nessa I just" "shut up" I said and I did the worst possible thing I could have.

DARIANKAS POV

Okay so Josh and Nessa disappeared a while ago and the rest of us girls were still out here talking. Suddenly we heard yelling or at least voice raising. "Should we go make sure they're okay?" Mads asked and we both got up Olivia and Avani close behind.

"I hate you" I heard Nessa say. "That doesn't sound good" I whispered and they all agreed. The yelling went on for a bit and then Josh spoke and I heard Nessa say "shut up" then everything was quiet. The door came open a bit and. OH MY GOD.

"Yeah I saw that coming" Avani said behind me and we all ran back to the living room. "Well then" I said and we all laughed.

JOSHS POV

"Shut up" Nessa told me and then. She kissed me. Like aggressively. We kissed for a long ass time but trust me when I say I wasn't going to ruin this. Then we were moving towards my bed when she suddenly stopped and pulled back covering her mouth. "What's wrong?" I asked her.

NESSAS POV

oh my god. I broke away and covered my mouth. "What's wrong" he asked. "I just cheated on Noah. Oh my god. No no no no no why am I so stupid. I can't what do I do. Am I supposed to tell him. Oh my god he's going to hate me. He's gonna hate you! Oh my god he's gonna hate you and your friends. I'm so sorry. I have to go. I have to I just have to g-go" I started shaking and Josh put his hands on my shoulders.

"Nessa please calm down. It's okay everything is gonna be fine don't worry about it." I stopped breathing so heavy but I was still shaking. "Let me drive you home" Josh said. Noah drove me here so I was stuck anyway. I nodded and I walked past the girls and they looked concerned as josh rubbed my back and I hadn't stopped shaking.