My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 44~

NESSAS POV

I got up at 11 and drove to Olivia and Dariankas apartment cause Lauren was there too. "Hi bitches" I said walking in.

"Hi Ness" Lauren said giving me a hug. "I have to tell you all something" I said sitting down. "But I want you to guess first so I feel less bad about telling you" they nodded.

"Okay is it about Mads" lauren asked and I shook my head. "Josh?" Olivia asked. I nodded. "Did somthing happen after I left the other night" I shook my head "the next day" I told him and they were silent for a while.

"Are you back together" Liv asked me and I shook my head. "Did you get in a fight" lauren asked and I shook my head. "What time of day" d asked me. "Night" I said quietly. They were silent and then Dariankas eyes widened "bitch you didn't" she said.

I nodded and she screamed. "I'm lost" lauren said. "Hold up did y'all fuck" Olivia asked me. I put my head in my hands "no you did not" lauren screamed. (NESSAAAAA Im sorry that is forever somthing I will remeber Caleb fuckin ran away ahh good times)

"You can't talk about it okay?" I said and they l promised not too. "So what does that mean we got a friends with benefits situation or what?" Liv asked me "No it was a one time thing and were still broken up" I told her. "Whatever you say" d said. "What do you mean. "Well when two ex's hook up it normally means they still love each other and they normally do it again and again because their afraid to admit the truth" she told me.

"Is that true?" I asked and they all nodded "I mean normally" lauren said. I laid back. "Why does it have to be so fucking complicated" I asked. "That's boys for you" Olivia told me. "Speaking of boys have you talked to Kio since he found out that you thought he cheated" I asked her and she shook her head. "We've talked and talked and some things just don't add up no matter what and I can't look him in the eyes again" she told me and I gave her a hug.

"I have to go to the studio but I will see you all later" I told them giving them hugs. "Okay music woman" lauren said and I laughed grabbing my keys and walking out. I drove to get some lunch at Panera first and Bryce and Josh were there.

"Hey" Josh said coming up behind me. "Oh hey" I turned around to face him. "Wanna come sit with us?" He asked. I checked the time. I still had an hour and a half so I nodded and followed him. "The hell did she come from" Bryce said giving me a fist bump. "I was hiding her in the trunk" Josh joked "she would fit" Bryce said and I pretended to be offended.

"So I see you too are buddy buddy again" Bryce said raising his eyebrows. "And based on the hickie on your neck which I'm guessing isn't from Chase your "besties" again" Bryce said pointing to my neck. Fuck I forgot to cover that. "It was one time Bryce and we decided not to let it happen again" Josh told him. "Let me know how long that lasts I bet you won't make it two days" Bryce said getting up to go to the bathroom.

"You don't think he's right do you" I asked him. "I mean I would do it again." Josh said and I laughed at him. "I don't think that's a good idea" I told him and my phone buzzed.

Thomas🚂

Hey Nessa I was wondering if you wanted to come over tomorrow and you could be in the vlog I think people will be surprised

Yeah sure haha

Kk lol I'll see you at 12?

Sounds good

I think ryland missed hitting on you

Hahaha well that's too bad cause I will shut that down

Haha see you tomorrow dwarf

you too thomas the train

Read at 2:45 pm

"Whoa that?" Josh asked me cause I laughed. "Oh just thomas he wants me to come over tomorrow" I told him. He looked a little annoyed. "I will stay away from Chase if that's what your worried about" I told him. "I know I just hate the thought of him trying anything ever again. I let it go the first time somehow forgave him the second but this time I'm not Ness" he said. "I know I know but I have too Josh. Even if I'm not his friend I have to be civil enough to be in the same house as him" I told him and touched his arm.

"So I have to go help Addison Nessa you okay to give Josh a ride or the other way around" he laughed and my mouth dropped open. "Yes I can take him home but not the second one" I said hitting him. "We shall see" Bryce said leaving.

"Where do you have to go this afternoon" josh asked me. "Well I have to be at the studio in a half hour but I can take you home if you want" I told him. "Could I maybe come with you" he asked.

I was gonna be doing the instrumentals for my song today so I guess if he didn't hear the words that would be fine. "Yeah sure" I told him.

We finished eating and I started driving to the studio. When we got there my manager said hi to josh and told him he could sit on the couch. I figured he'd go on his phone or something but he just watched me the whole time while I talked to my manager and my team and we tried to find the right instruments.

"I want it to be slower because with the dark and the rain I want it to be as sad and I was" I told him and they did just what I said. They made it perfect. Exactly how I imagined it.

"You guys are fucking magical" I said and they laughed "nope just good at doing what I'm told" John(that's what we're gonna call him btw he's the guy working the recording stuff) told me and I gave him a hug.

"You wanna do some of the vocals today?" He asked me and I checked the time. Damn it's 8:45 poor josh I should take him home. "No today but I'm maybe when I come back not tomorrow but the day after" i told him a and he nodded and I said goodbye.

"It sounds really good" Josh told me in the car. "Thank you" I said smiling and I drove to his house. I parked the car. "Thanks for coming with me" I told him. "Of course. Uh ant is staying with Avani  and Jaden is on visiting his family if you wanna come in" he told me.

I should say no. It's 9:00 and I know how I get when I'm around him but my dumbass said yes. I mentally slapped myself as I got out of the car and walked inside.

We sat on the couch and started watching twilight. "This may be the cringiest movie in ever made" he said disgusted. "He loves her and that's what matters" I told him. He put his arm around me and I was having flashbacks to when we first met.

When he first kissed me. Our first beach trip when he asked me out. All of it. My life has changed so much because of him. Good and bad but no matter what it was because I found him. I want to be able to tell him that but I don't know if he really wants to be with me anymore or if he still loves me that much.

We were looking at each other and we said "I love you" I'm sync. "Well then um I can't say I was expecting you to say that" he told me. "Same here" I giggled. "Josh I don't know how to do this" I told him. "Do what" he asked. "This whole were just friends but we love each other thing" I told him.

"Well I think we need to figure it out together and see where it goes like we're starting over but with some history" he told him and I agreed. "I think that's a good idea."

"So what now" I asked. "I mean I guess we just finish the movie" he said. We both turned back to the TV but that didn't last long. After like 10 minutes he looked at me and I looked at him and we were making out again.

This really really feels like friends with benefits. I don't think that's a bad thing right? I mean it's not like I don't trust him he's Josh I love him and he loves me we just aren't ready to really be together again. Yeah that makes sense.

Let's just say tonight ended with naked people in the same bed. "We really have to stop ending our nights like this" Josh joked and I kissed him goodnight before falling asleep.