My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 15~

NESSA'S POV

Mads suggested that me and josh, her and Jaden, and Addison and Bryce go to a fair today on the boardwalk. I agreed only because I knew Cythina was coming over to hang out with Quinton and I was not in the mood for that. We all got ready and I put on this and straightened my hair

We were gonna grab Starbucks before we went so we could all eat and so when I went downstairs we went to get in the uber (it's a big car) except just then fucking Cythina walks in. Seriously. She tried to hug me and I pushed her back. She looked embarrassed and walked towards Quinton giving him a smile.

I hate her like seriously you think you can hug me Addison read my mind because she whispered in my ear "fake bitch" I tried really hard not to laughed and then Bryce said "Alright let's no now" we all got in the Uber and jammed to music on the way to Starbucks. "Did you know I love you" Josh whispered in my ear "nope really?" I whispered back sarcastically he laughed "I love you too" I whispered again and we kissed "ugh get a room" Mads yelled I flipped her off and we laughed and then we went into Starbucks and got drinks and sandwiches and after we were done eating we got dropped off at the carnival. Me and the girls took pictures before we all spilt off in twos

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After we were done taking pictures we all split off with our dates and I went with Josh to get milkshakes we got our milkshakes and then a little girl came up to me "um excuse me could I have a picture with you" I looked at her and smiled "of course you can" we took the picture "what's your name?" "I'm breanna" "that's a beautiful name how old are you" "9" "well I just want to tell you to always follow your dreams because guess what you can do it" I hugged her and her mom thanked me. I walked back to josh and he kissed my cheek

"that was so adorable" I told him he nodded and smiled at me and we went off to ride some rides. After a couple hours we were walking looking at the sunset when he looked at me and said "Nessa Barrett I love you and" he got down on his knee "Uh Josh" he shook his head "I want to give you this promise ring to always promise to love you as long as you'll let me" I smiled and put the ring on and he kissed me then we took some pictures with fans and kept walking til we met back up with the rest of them to get burgers at a restaurant at the carnival.

We were having the best time just hanging out and laughing our asses off. I'm so glad I'm here. Back in New Jersey I was bullied and made fun of and I went through a lot with my family and if I hadn't met Josh I might not have been here today. He doesn't know about my eating disorder problems or my depression and suicide attempts. I should tell him I know but I just feel like he'll judge me. I love him and he loves me but what if it's too much. "Nessa you good?" Mads asked me and I realized I had spaced out "oh yeah sorry" I laughed and she let it go knowing what I was think about. She knows me too well damnit.

After we were done we Ubered back to the house and i was thinking the whole was home. I have to tell him he has to know. "Josh can u talk to you in private" "oh yeah let's go" we went up to his room and I told him to sit down and I sat across from him "back in New Jersey I had a lot of problems and I've been afraid to tell you for the longest time cause I don't want you to see me differently" "I would never" I smiled "so from a young age I struggled with my body and I had an eating disorder and i still have issues today" he touched my leg "um" I got choked up "and many times in my life I have fell down deep holes and sometimes it's so hard for me to come back out and I've had suicide attempts and um" at this point I was just crying and he hugged me wrapping his arms around me. "Why didn't you tell me" "I didn't want you to judge me" "I would never baby I love you" "I love you too" we cuddled like that for a while and watched the notebook "oh by the way we're having a party tomorrow here" "oh okay" I replied I've never really been to an LA party. I wonder how it's gonna go. Whatever. I'll just try and enjoy it. I fell asleep.

A/N: Hey guys sorry I disappeared I'm gonna try and update more cause school is almost over!! Hope you liked it how do you think the party will go? Also 2K READS!!! CRAZY!!! Love you all!!