My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 50~

JOSHS POV

what the fuck did I just do. I looked over at the girl in my bed that I didn't even know the name of. After Nessa let me have it I just wanted to do something so I found the first girl I could and hooked up with her.

"Hey maybe we could get coffee sometime" the girl asked me. "I'm sorry but this was a mistake I think you should go" I told her "I'll walk you out" i said to her and she looked disappointed.

"Here's my number if you change your mind" she said. "Thanks Uh" "Sarah" she said and walked out the door. I closed the door and put my head in my hands.

Nessa was right. Cynthia forgave Quinton and Amelie and Blake are still in a pretty good place. Addison won't talk to Bryce and well I just ruined any chance I had at getting Nessa back. "why am I such a fucking idiot" I said under my breath. "We" Bryce corrected me and came and sat next to to me.

I opened my phone to tiktokroom. "Oh god" I said and read through all the comments saying the girls deserved better. They were right. Nessa does deserve better. Better than me. Better than any guy. I just have to talk to her. I got up and drove to her apartment.

NESSAS POV

I woke up to Olivia sleeping on my legs and me and Addi leaning on each other. Cynthia left a note saying she had to go move into the "not a content house" and that she loved us. I smiled at the note. Good for her. I opened the fridge and got out some yogurt and a spoon. "Oh hey Nessa" Amelie said walking out of the bathroom. "I have to go to a photoshoot I'll see you later babes" she said hugging me "bye" I said as she walked out the door. "Thanks for this" she said peaking her head back in smiling and I smiled back.

I sighed and looked back at the couch with three sleeping girls piled up. "Shit" Addison said waking up. "I gotta be home my mom and I gotta record more of our podcast love you Nessa. Everything is gonna be fine. I know it. Your beautiful. Bye bye" she said quickly grabbing her stuff and heading out the door.

D and Liv woke up shortly after and ate some yogurt with me when we heard a knock on the door. I opened it to see the last person I wanted to. I closed the door right after opening it. "Nessa I just want to talk" Josh said behind the door. I looked at Liv and D "no one said you have to forgive him but at least let him talk" D told me. "I hate when your right" I said groaning.

I opened the door and led him outside to the balcony grabbing my coffee mug. "I'm listening" I said sitting across from him.

"I fucked up. I fucked up bad. It never should have happened I know that and I take full responsibility for that. Nessa I don't want you to take me back. You don't deserve this. You don't deserve the douche bag I am and how bad I've hurt you. You deserve someone who can be there and not screw everything up. We broke up so we could grow and you right I haven't. Nessa I slept with someone last night. After you left I just wanted to do something so bad and I just did. I'm so sorry for that. I'm not right for you Nessa. I love you more than anything but I'm bad for you."

My heart shattered all over again. He got up and left. I closed my eyes and the tears streamed down my face. Nessa it's not supposed to hurt. Your supposed to be over it.

I'm not.

Next thing I knew there was someone yelling at him. Olivia. And Darianka was hugging me tight. "Your Nessa Barrett remember that" she said and I remembered all the pain I went through and overcame. I can't let myself be there again. He slept with someone else. You can't change that Nessa. It happened.

The yelling stopped and Olivia came and hugged me. "He slept with someone else" I told them and they looked shocked. They hugged me some more. And some more after that. They had to leave because Olivia had a modeling gig and D had to go meet her parents for lunch.