My Forever - Nessa Barrett and Josh Richards

~Part 25~

NESSA'S POV

Good morning. Time to start packing for the next two weeks of my life. I shook Mads awake since it was already 11. "What time is it" she groaned "11" I told her "fuck" she said and I hit her with a pillow and she hit me while we laughed. "Bruh we haven't even fully moved in yet and we're leaving" she said "I know but I'm excited to go on my first tour and have Josh meet Julian" I told her and she made a face "I miss your little bro" "me too" we laughed and got out our suitcases after I ordered Postmates for breakfast. Josh FaceTimed me and Mads rolled her eyes "I'm gonna pee" and walked into the bathroom while u laughed. "Hello" I answered "hey so uh how many pairs of underwear do you think I need" I face palmed and said "Josh just bring like I don't know 16" "I only have 10" I laughed "we'll go to the store and buy 10 more okay" he nodded "are you guys packing yet" I told him "yeah Mads is tired though" "where is she" he asked "right here" she answered "I was peeing" I laughed and said "Josh go buy your underwear we gotta pack I love you bye" "love you too" I ended the call and went to get the Postmates. After I got back up to the apartment Mads got her food and started eating "so are you gonna tell Josh" "um I think so I mean that has to be a private conversation so I think I might go over there tonight and talk to him" she nodded and said "don't be nervous okay and don't let him pressure you into anything. He's not pressuring you right?" She said suspicious "no no not at all he's really sweet about it" "good" she said her face lightening. "Alright let's get this shit packed" she said putting her arms up I laughed and started packing my clothes. We started listening to music and having fun while we packed until Liv burst through the door "we have a problem" she said and I turned and said "good afternoon". "Nessa Chase and Charli are going" I froze. Not because of Charli but Chase. I haven't talked to him since and I just can't even fathom the words that just came out of Olivias mouth. Mads and her came over and hugged me. I started to cry and said "wait why are they coming" "our mangers thought it would be good publicity to have Chase there with Josh and now that him and Charli are on friend terms since she has no idea what happened they invited her too."I just kept crying I wasn't ready to face him and be near him for two weeks straight. No no he's not gonna ruins my experience and my time with my friends I can't let him do that. "Guys I can't just be weak like this and let him rule my life I'm not going to Im gonna go on tour ignore him and show him that's he can't fuck up my life forever" I told them "I'm so proud of you" Mads said "were here if you need us" Olivia said hugging me one more time before leaving to go pack. After another hour I had finished packing everything I would need and I got dressed in this

And got an Uber to sway. Mads said Jaden was coming over so she didn't come with me. I had to think about what I wanted to say to Josh. I mean I just have this anxiety about my life constantly and after my scare yesterday I just want him to know because I don't want to keep secrets from him and I love him. When I got to Sway Griffin opened the door and Dixie said "who is it" "it's me" I laughed and she came and hugged me "what's up shawty" she said "nothing I just came to see Josh" she nodded and did the f-boy hand thing on her chin and i laughed "he's upstairs by the way" griffin said "thanks big bro Griff" he laughed and I went upstairs to Josh and opened the door to his room where I found him trying to pack his stuff in his suitcase "need some help" I asked and he said "yes please" I shook my head and went over neatly folding all the clothes he had messily put in his suitcase "not that I'm not happy to see you but why did you come I thought you were packing" he said wrapping his arms around me "yeah me and Mads finished earlier and I wanted to talk to you about somthing" I said still folding "oh what is it" he sat down in front of me. Okay Nessa deep breath. "So Josh I don't want to keep any secrets from you so yesterday I lied Mads didn't call me while I was in the drug store and I wasn't looking for her snack I was buying and taking a pregnancy test but I was scared to tell you because I was just freaking out inside and wanted to be sure" he stared at me for a minute "oh uh well what did it say" he looked really nervous "it was negative but I just have had this knot in my stomach ever since I lied to you and wanted to tell you the truth because I love you" he took a dee breath and said "I'm not mad at all and I understand why you lied and how you felt and Ness you know you could just tell me if you don't want to I would never make you" I put his face in my hands "Josh I know that and I love you for that I just got scared that's all" I gave him a kiss on the cheek and went back to packing his suitcase. After that I cuddled with him for a bit while we talked and watched YouTube videos but I had to go home tonight to make sure Jaden went back to sway so I could talk to Mads. Selfish nah it's just wifey stuff. I kissed Josh goodbye and he said "I love you no matter what" "me too" I said and before I walked out I remembered. Shit. He probably doesn't know about Chase. "Josh wait um one more thing Chase is coming on Tour" his face dropped "no he's not that was a joke tell me your kidding" I shook my head no. I thought he was gonna storm out of somthing but he just wrapped his arms around me and said "if he comes near you I will beat his ass I'll kill him if I have to make him leave anything you need I'm there I'm not letting you be alone in the same building with him" "thank you Josh that means a lot" I said and kissed he one more time and went out to my Uber. Griffin and Dixie has disappeared but I think I had a pretty good idea where they were. After I got home I walked in and saw Mads and Jaden kissing on the couch. I turned on the light and said "Alright rockstar time to go home" Mads groaned and said "I didn't think you'd be coming home how did it go" "how did what go" Jaden asked "and that's why he's leaving" I said and Jaden got up and kissed Mads goodbye she laughed as I showed him out the door. "It was good" I said "I told him about what happened and he was supportive and sweet and when I told him about Chase he got all protective which was kinda adorable so I would say it was a success" I told her "I'm glad that it was good now we're going to go to sleep because we're gonna need all the sleep we can get if we're gonna wake up at 3 to go to the airport tomorrow night" I groaned "probably the worst part about tour is gonna be flights" I said and she laughed "hell yes it is" we went into my bedroom to sleep because he bed hadn't come in yet and we fell asleep.