Red Thread - (Mishu)

red strings ✔️

"Great show girls!" Manager-nim said while me and the girls are now heading to the dressing room as we thanked all of them.

We got completely busy after this comeback, interviews and guestings are everywhere and I love it, I am really happy seeing our fans being satisfied with our efforts.

This day was our last stage for 'Oh My God', I love all our songs but this new comeback really caught my heart from the concept itself and the lyrics. Not to mention the subtle gay parts of the lyrics and the MV.

My favorite part was when Soojin unnie came close to my face and whispered 'Ab imo pectore' (It means from the bottom of my heart). I got out of control that I almost kissed her. God! I know it's normal for girls be clingy but I really wanted a kiss, especially from her and with her only.

I really like Soojin unnie even before we debut but this kind of relationship shouldn't be and will never be tolerated, so that's why I'm always clinging into her. I don't know until when can I still take being behind this friendship line.

No! No one should know my true sexuality, it will ruin me, and my group's career. I can't risk it, we already had too much sacrifices just to have our own debut.

But sometimes, I think some members can sense this part of me but they're just shrugging it off.

I wish there would be a time that I can finally be true to myself

I wanna scream my lungs out by saying 'I like girls too' and this is who I am

Thinking of coming out kills me a lot. I'm already a celebrity, and that I must act like one, be good and beautiful just like what they wanted to see. Fuck it.

On the brighter side, I finally achieved my dream.

It's been two years since I debuted in (G)I-dle, with my unnies, Miyeon, Minnie, Soyeon, Soojin💘 and Yuqi. And I am thankful that God gave me these wonderful sisters, except Soojin unnie because I love her in a different way.

Finally, we are going home. It's really tiring but also fulfilling, so I guess I still have a lot to be thankful for.

We're at the van already, heading to our dorm and Miyeon unnie was sitting beside me. My eyes are still focused outside the window when I felt something resting on my shoulder.

Miyeon unnie.

Minnie unnie chuckled when she found me looking at Miyeon unnie confusingly. "She must be really tired."

"Yeah, obviously." I replied shortly.

Meanwhile Yuqi, on the front seat was looking at the rearview mirror. I can see her smiling at Miyeon unnie, she smirked before she removed her eyes on us.

That was weird. Sometimes I don't know If I'm the only gay one in this group.

Maybe she likes Miyeon unnie.

Ugh! No, stop thinking like that Shuhua. You're the only gay inside this vehicle.

I ignored Yuqi's unnecessary action and starts diverting my attention to the girl beside me. Miyeon unnie.

Barefaced Miyeon. I know I shouldn't look at her like this because she will tease me again but... I just can't take my eyes off of her. I admit, looking at her peacefully sleeping figure, she's truly an angel.

Actually, the only time I don't find her annoying is when she's sleeping.

"Yah Shushu, she might melt with that stare." I snapped out when I heard Minnie unnie's voice, it was little louder than we both expected which also woke up Miyeon unnie. I stared at her that long?