I Fall, He Fall

Chapter 18

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You can really do everything to forget every things that makes you hurt so bad.

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Mom was so angry when he caught me kissing my boyfriend. Yes, my boyfriend Daniel. Si Niece Krizzle Eldefundo ay bumalik muli sa pagiging playgirl! And guess what, being a bad ass, a party goer and a sort of rebel made me forget all of them. Lahat ng disappointments, lahat ng sakit, lahat ng problema ay nakalimutan ko. Masaya rin pala kung happy go lucky lang.

I smirked to my Mom.

"I can't understand you anymore Niece! Hindi ka naman ganito noon ah?!"

I scoffed. Oo, hindi ako ganito noon. Sino bang nagpabago sa akin? Sino ba ang nagpabaya? Diba siya?! Bakit kung makapagsalita siya ay parang kasalanan ko lahat? Well, probably yes! But I am sort of blamed her for what happened to our life—to my life!

I want to forget! Hindi madali lahat sa akin ang nangyari. It's so frustrating. Nawalan ako ng kaibigan, nawalan ng Ama at siya—kahit kasama ko ay parang nawala rin siya sa akin. Nawala lahat ng parang bula ang mga taong nakasanayan ko. Nawalan ako ng karamay at kahit si Calix, nawala rin siya sa akin! I loved him for goodness sake pero ano? Wala akong magawa dahil pinapunta niya kami dito sa Los Angeles! Kailanman hindi ko pinangarap na manirahan dito.

Kahit ang makapagpaalam man lang ay hindi ko nagawa bago umalis. And she's selfish. Ginawa ko lahat ng ito para makalimot. Masama ba iyon?

"If you didn't let your emotions get you Mom, hindi sana nangyari ito. Lahat ng nangyayari sa pamilya natin ay kasalanan mo! Klint was miserable and I too Mom! Hindi mo ba alam iyon? Oo nga naman! Paano mo malalaman kung ang atensiyon mo ay kay Dad?! Stalking him, really Mom?!"

I scorn because of her pathetic actions. Mahal niya naman bakit iniwan niya? Alam niya at alam kong walang ginawang masama si Dad. He did not cheat pero dahil sa pride niya at kahihiyan ay ayaw niyang umuwi ng Pilipinas.

Mom slapped me but instead of shutting my mouth, I continued talking.

"Ni hindi mo nga kami tinanong kung okay lang bang sumama sa'yo sa Los Angeles. Hindi namin gusto! You were forced us to go here and be with you! Kung nasaktan ka sa nangyari, nasaktan din kami. Sobra pa nga e. Alam mo kung bakit? Nawalan kami lahat. Nang Ama, Ina at mga kaibigan! Ni wala kaming naging karamay sa nangyari."

"Nandito ako!"

"Physically yes. But do you really care huh? Nandito ka ba talaga sa amin Mom?! When was the last you talked to us? When was the last time you prepared our foods? When was the last you take good care of us huh? Kailan Mom? Kailan ang huling nagsama tayo sa hapag?! Kailan ang huling nagkuwentuhan tayo at nagtawanan?"

She cried while I was talking nonstop. Gusto kong malaman niya lahat. Hindi lang naman kasi ako ang nahihirapan sa pag-alis namin ng Pilipinas kundi pati si Klint! He was devastated every day knowing that he's far from Dad.

"Hindi ako ganito noon, oo, tama kayo Mom. But you made me like this, you forced me to be like this and I need to be like this; to forget all the things that frustrates and hurts me a lot," I said while crying now. I left her there, crying all alone. She expresses vain regrets for what cannot be recovered anymore.

I was so distant to Mom. Kahit alam kong ginagawa niya ulit ang lahat para mapalapit sa amin ni Klint. But it takes time to be close to her again. Hindi ganoon kadali iyon.

She even brought Kiro to our house to please me again. I was shocked of course. Sino ba namang hindi?

"Oh my gosh! You are here!"

"Yeah. Miss me?"

I rolled my eyes to him. Napatingin ako kay Mom and she was smiling, looking at me so happy when I saw Kiro. I smiled back to her. She really knows that I am still a fan of this guy. Until now, I still admired him.

And speaking of admiration, I thought of Calix. I missed him so badly. Maghihigit apat na taon na pero siya parin. How can I forget that man? Of course I can't. He is my one and only great love. May parte parin siya sa puso ko kahit nakailang boyfriend na'ko dito. Siya parin talaga.

"Wanna have fun?" I grinned.

His brows furrowed as he looked at me curiously. Why? What's the matter?

"Fun? Do you go to clubs?"

"I love parties and such Kiro. And oh! I forgot, it might ruin your image if you go with me. So maybe next time?"

I smirked.

He shook his head in disbelief.

"You've change a lot huh?"

"Well, people change. And this changes made me so happy Kiro. Come on, don't start with me."

Ngumise lang ito at nagpaalam kay Mommy na aalis. Pero nagulat ako ng hilahin niya ako palabas ng bahay at isinakay sa kanyang sasakyan. Nagtaka ako.

"You will go with me Superstar? Baka pagsisihan mo," I said.

He licked his lips and grinned.

"I don't care about my reputation or what will they say to me Niece. As long as I am with you, it's okay."

Napailing ako. Dumidiskarte ba siya? Kung oo, good try, dahil baka patulan ko siya. He is not bad to be my boyfriend. Really Niece?! Iyon agad ang iniisip mo?

"Be my girl Niece."

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. What? Ang bilis naman? Kaka-kita lang namin tapos ganito agad ang sasabihin niya?

"Are you damn kidding me?"

"No. Be my girl or be my fiancé Niece? Choose."

I frowned.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

He sighed deeply.

"I'm sorry if I'll tell you this early, but you're going to be my wife soon. We're into fixed marriage Niece."

My jaw dropped and cursed two consecutively. What the hell? Fixed marriage?! Are you kidding me Mom? You really want me to hate you to the core!

This is freakin' insane!

"She thought it might help you forget everything."

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