I Fall, He Fall

Chapter 19

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Marry the man that you loved not the man of your dreams.

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I was fuming mad. I really cannot understand why I am experiencing this kind of life! Fixed marriage?! No. Hindi pwedi! I need my freedom and I do not even love Kiro so why would I marry him?!

I get drank. Tumakas ako sa kanya dahil ayokong makita siya. I missed Calix. I want to be with him. Siya lang ang gusto kong pakasalan at wala ng iba. Hindi si Kiro at lalong hindi iyong ibang tao.

Gosh. I am a messed. I need Gazel right now. I am so devastated knowing that Mommy doing things behind my back. And it is frustrating to think it repeatedly. Para na akong mababaliw dahil wala man lang akong magawa maliban sa magpakalasing sa lecheng bar na ito. Is she even serious about it? Hindi niya ako tinanong kung okay lang ba sa akin na magpakasal. For goodness sake, I am too young for that marriage!

Soon.

The voice of Kiro echoed in my ears. Soon. I scoffed at the idea. After I graduate in college? Malapit na.

"Hey beautiful."

"Back off!" I shouted and showed him my middle finger. Guys like him are so annoying. I just want to get drank and I am not in the mood to make out.

"Whoa, fine!"

Umalis ito at hindi pa nagdadalawang minuto ay may sumulpot na namang kagaya niya. Nakakainis. I want to be alone, hindi ba nila maintindihan iyon? Tumayo ako at umalis sa lugar na iyon. Kahit nahihilo na ay nagawa ko pang lumabas at magpahangin.

Napahawaka ko sa sentido ko at hinilot iyon. Oh no! I am so drunk!

Paliko-liko na ang lakad ko hanggang sa makarating sa pinakamalapit na Burger Shop. I stayed there for two hours to make myself sober.

Someone tapped my shoulder. Inangat ko iyon at nagulat ng makita si Kiro sa harapan. Nakasimangot ang mukha nito habang nailing pa. Umupo ito sa harapan ko at humilig sa kanyang inuupuan. He crossed his arms in front of his chest and looks like he's ready to scold me.

"You are always like this?"

What, always drunk? Iyon ba ang gusto niyang sabihin?

I twisted my lips. "Yeah."

"You are wasted. Look at yourself."

Blah, blah, blah! Tumawa ako ng mapakla. Ano namang pakealam niya kung ganito ako gabi-gabi? Does he care? He is handsome when he glares at me, but Calix is way too handsome and hot compare to him. Well, maybe that is my vision. Vision if you are in love with that person.

"I am like this every freaking night Kiro. You know why?"

I smirked. Baka lang naman gusto niyang malaman at masabi niya kay Mommy.

Hindi ko na alam kung ano na ang itsura ko. He said I am wasted. Siguro, hindi na maayos ang make up sa kaiiyak at ang buhok ay sobrang gulo.

"Why Niece?"

He tilted his head and look at me, saying that he is ready to listen. Tumawa ulit ako ng mapakla. I am so bitter.

"Because I am here Kiro. I want to go back to the Philippines, but I do not have a money! How can she do this to me right? I am her daughter. And I am so bitter for everything. My family is ruined. I do not have friends anymore. My pretty freaking life was gone in just a click!"  I cried after telling that to him.

"And I missed Calix so much. I want to be with him."

Napahagulgol ako ng iyak. I am so messed.

Nasasaktan ako sa isiping napakalayo ko sa kanya. Natatakot ako na baka may iba na siya at hindi na ako ang gusto. I am pretty sure that I can still go back to the Philippines once I graduated college. Maghahanap ako ng trabaho at mag-iipon para makauwi lang ng Pilipinas. Pero baka mahuli ako.

I cried so much. Ang sakit.

Ayaw akong bigyan ni Mommy at kung mag-iipon man ay hindi parin kaya. Sakto lang ang ibinibigay nito sa akin and those drinks that I am drinking? It is all free! Mommy's friend owns that freakin' bar. Mommy knows what I am doing but she does not care at all. Doon lang siya nagkaroon ng pake ng mahuli niya akong may kahalikang lalaki sa bahay. Kaya siya nagalit sa akin.

I cannot find a job here. My Mom controls my life. Hindi ko alam na kaya niyang magpakaselfish para hindi kami makauwi ng Pilipinas. I do not understand her.

"Calix is getting married."

And just like a bomb, it explodes in my entire body. Hindi ko alam na may mas sasakit pa pala sa lahat ng  mga pinagdaanan ko. I cannot utter a single word. Damn, I am so speechless.

"Jacklyn is pregnant. You still want to go home despite of that?" parang may panghahamon na saad niya.

Calix is getting married. Jacklyn is pregnant.

May mas sasakit pa ba ditto? Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko. Gusto kong magwala. Gusto kong sisihin si Mommy. Gusto kong sampalin si Kiro. Galit ako at nasasaktan.

"W-when is the wedding?"

Hindi makapaniwalang umiling ito.

"Why? You will stop him?"

Stop him? How can I do that? I am here. Napakalayo namin at hindi ko kayang liparin o takbuhin ang distansiya naming dalawa. Kung pwedi lang mag teleport ay ginawa ko na para makasama siya.

"I will help you."

Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya. Is he kidding me? No, he is serious.

"Pakasalan mo ako para makalaya ka na sa Mommy mo. Iuuwi kita ng Pilipinas and you will live with me of course."

Nangunot iyong noo ko. Makalaya? At sa kanya naman ako matatali ganoon ba?

"Are you kidding me Kiro? Makakaalis nga ako sa puder ni Mommy pero sa iyo naman ako matatali! Naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo?!"

He smirked.

"I heard myself clearly Niece. We can divorce after a year or more. I am giving you a choice."

"No!" I firmly said.

Baliw lang ang tatanggap sa offer niya. At hindi pa ako baliw para doon.

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinasabi niya. Para akong nabibinge. And Calix is getting married and he offered me to marry him. Nakakatawa.

Saan niya ba ito nakuha? Isa ba ito sa mga lines niya sa movie? Gusto niya ata akong pagtripan.

"Gusto mong makita si Calix diba? This is your chance Niece."

Gusto ko siyang makita pero hindi sa ganitong paraan. Marriage is a sacred thing so I won't marry him. I don't love him.

"Sorry Kiro pero ayaw kong magpakasal sa'yo. Gagawa ako ng paraan para makauwi ng Pilipinas. I am only marrying the man that I love and that is Calix. I am going."

Tumayo ako at tinalikuran siya. He cannot manipulate me. Hindi ako tanga para sa mga binabalak niya. Naalala ko ang sinabi ni Calix sa akin.

Stop seeing him Niece.

Iyon ang gagawin ko. I trust him when he said that he will fight for me no matter what. I will hold unto that until I finish my college. I will do everything to go home. At kung huli na ako, I will not stop chasing him. I am Niece Krizzle Eldefundo, at kaya ko siyang akitin muli para mapasaakin siya.

I am not born to be a mistress but I will be for Calix. Kaya kong gawin iyon para sa taong mahal ko.

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