touch (meanie)

10.

mingyu entered his class and remembered he had ethics with seungkwan which made him sigh, he knew the younger was about to shower him with questions since he always sat beside him

"you feeling better?" seungkwan asked softly

for his surprise, he didn't really ask him worried questions, he just honestly wanted to know if he was okay since it wasn't the first time that he had had a panic attack

"yeah, i'm sorry" mingyu said quietly and looked away

"don't be" seungkwan said and turned to his notebook to take notes "remember you can talk to me"

mingyu nodded and tried to pay attention but the words asexual were stuck in his brain, plus, the stress of walking out on his test was making him nervous again

him suspecting he was asexual wasn't actually what was worrying him at first, just his test, but when he started getting panicked about something, all the things that were stressing him out before, suddenly bothered him more than anything

he felt the need to cry because he was worried, he didn't turn in his test so it would be worthless and his days in the school where his friends attended were counted

"i'm asexual, i'm asexual, i'm asexual" he thought and clenched his fists feeling like he was about to burst

seungkwan noticed and grabbed his hand with a worried look "it's okay" he whispered but mingyu couldn't take it anymore

"I'M ASEXUAL" he yelled

a bunch of people turned to see him in shock and stared at him silently, seungkwan stood up and hugged him trying to make him calm down

mingyu looked at the people that were staring at him nearly out of words including the teacher and spotted wonwoo

for some reason he looked more shocked than anyone else, and perhaps a little happy? mingyu couldn't tell because he was about to cry

"mingyu, you can leave the classroom if you feel like it, but please don't interrupt the class" the teacher said softly

he stood up aggressively and seungkwan fell to the ground hitting his face with the seat in the process

he was about to help but instead ran away in embarrassment, he ran all the way to his house and his parents figured out what had happened so they left him alone

at times like that, he needed to be alone for a while and then when he had calmed down, he needed to talk with someone to reassure him since he got extra-sensitive after a panic attack
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a few hours later, mingyu woke up by a knock on his door and weakly said "come in" without caring enough to stand up

his friends entered his room and sat down on his bed without saying anything, he sat up and gulped, seungkwan had a gauze on his cheekbone that was a little bloody

"i'm so sorry" he said feeling terrible "i- i didn't know i hurt you"

"you couldn't control yourself, don't apologize" hansol said seriously and the other two nodded

"are you feeling any better?" seungcheol asked and mingyu looked away unsure on what to reply

"yes, it's just that i was a little stressed because of the test and it happened again and i just i-" he said starting to feel anxious again

seungkwan stopped him "we know, i told them what happened, we just want you to know that we're proud of you for figuring it out" he said

mingyu nodded and smiled "thank you, i feel like- it's just like the second i said it someone took a ton of weight i had been carrying for a long time, it feels good to be out" he said

"how long have you known?" seungcheol faked he didn't know

"not long after hansol mentioned it, i wanted to tell you guys but i didn't know how to, i guess that wasn't the best way" he chuckled lightly

"it's okay, the good thing is that now we know and support you, if you don't mind, we all have some questions" hansol chuckled

"i'll answer them gladly" mingyu giggled "but before i do, did i hurt you a lot?" he frowned worriedly while looking at seungkwan

"no, don't worry, i passed out for a while because i was in shock, but someone took me to the nursery quickly and they checked me up, when hansol got the news, i was just waking up and the nurse told us that the injury was only but a scratch and that it was just a little scare" he explained

mingyu sighed in relief but then felt a pang on his chest "guys, i didn't turn in my test, so it won't be valid and i won't keep my scholarship" he said sadly

"that doesn't mean you have to leave school, right?" seungcheol asked quickly

mingyu looked away "i'm sorry, i can't afford it" he said and fidgeted with his fingers nervously

seungkwan rolled his eyes "rubbish, i already told you i can help you and i'm not taking a no for an answer" he said and he was not joking

"seungkwan, i can't accept that kind of help, i wouldn't like to be a burden" he said sadly

"burden? it's not like i'm paying for the rest of your studies" seungkwan giggled "i can just help you until you get your scholarship back, you're really hardworking and intelligent, i'm sure you'll get it back in no time, you just let yourself get nervous this time but i know you can do better"

mingyu scratched the back of his neck "i don't know, i think it-"

seungkwan scoffed "i said i'm not taking a no for answer, in fact i wasn't even asking for your opinion, i already talked with your parents and they agreed" he said sassily

mingyu giggled, he knew the younger didn't mean to be rude, it was just his personality and his natural sassiness, so he gave up "thank you, i promise i'll get it back as soon as possible"

"i really hope so, that way you'll be calm, but remember there is no rush, i have no problem with helping you and will kick your ass if you pressure yourself too much again" he joked

they all laughed making mingyu feel better

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