Once in a lifetime

28

"How's my little Cryssie doing then, hm?" Justin said, obnoxiously, wriggling his eyebrows and smirking.

"I am seriously not in the mood for your shit Justin." I said defensively, folding my arms and raising one eyebrow. Usually I looked for the good in people, but Justin was just such an IDIOT. I couldn't be nice to him. I always came off as mean or sassy, for lack of a better word, around him.

"Awh come on baby, don't you want any of this?" He whispered to me, coming closer as he licked his finger and made sizzling sounds as he touched his chest. "I know you miss me."

I looked at him in disgust and backed into my dorm room, slamming the door in his face.

So the guy next door who constantly screamed at Jan and I to shut up was Justin. What a let down.

I turned and stormed to my bed and lay down. My fire-red hair falling like a cloud around my ears as I covered my face and turned towards the wall. I didn't want Jan seeing me like this. I curled my knees up towards my chest and wrapped my arms around my stomach, letting silent tears fall from my eyes, holding back sobs. I pretended to fall asleep so that Jan could get some rest but in reality I don't think I slept at all.

I heard her leave in the morning, but I must've been half asleep because when I finally decided to get up, there was a note left beside me.

Crystal

If you wake up and I'm not here I'm probably in class, I didn't wake you up because you seemed pretty rough and I think you need today off. I'll tell the lecturers that you're sick.

I'll pick up some food on the way home

Love you!

- Jan <3

I sighed as I folded the note and lay back in bed. Jan was a great friend and I wanted to be grateful for what she was doing, I really did, but I just felt empty other than what felt like guilt in my stomach. I wasn't guilty but that's what it felt like.

Or maybe I was guilty because in a way I felt like it was my fault.

My fault for being gay.

I curled up tightly, biting my nails and jumping at any slight sound. I could here chattering and laughing from outside and that made everything feel worse. I got up with a burst of anger and slammed the window shut, and then immediately leaning my forehead against the cool glass as I relaxed all my muscles, feeling the tears run down my face.

I jumped as someone knocked on the door, even though it was a quite knock. I assumed it was Jan after forgetting her keys again so I sighed as I dragged myself off my bed and slowly walked over to the door. I opened it as I rubbed the last of my tears away and I realized it wasn't Jan.

I felt anger bubble inside me as the silver haired girl began to talk.

"Hey Crystal, we need to talk. Can I come in" She said in a sad yet hopeful voice.

"Sure Gigi, come in." I said venomously. I couldn't help but feel angry at her. Even if it wasn't her fault I just had so much built up rage.

I moved to the side and she walked in, sitting on Jans perfectly made bed as I sat opposite her on my messy one.

"Right. Let's talk then."

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I might update again tonight, we'll see.

Also I got my Daegen and Daya cameos and they were the sweetest EVER!! 10/10 will be buying more
- J :)