My Protector: I Love Him, It's a Secret

Chapter 13: New Life

Raya's POV:

Nung araw na tumawag si Mommy Dina na nagpabago sa buhay namin ni Cole ay ang araw na nalaman ko that I am carrying a gift from God, my little Coley. I know, from the beginning that he will be a boy. It may sound unfair but I prayed that it will be a boy after seeing the two red lines on the four pregnancy test kits that I used. I was so ecstatic to share to Coley the news. Alam kong matutuwa siya. I am excited to see the play of emotions on his face after I tell him about our baby. I could almost imagine how the tiredness that I often saw in his eyes these days will be gone. Yes, I know finding a job is taking a toll on him pero hindi niya lang sinasabi sa akin kasi ayaw niya akong mag alala. That's my Coley. He always protects me from the harshness of life. And I think that's one of the reasons why I keep on falling deeply for him everyday.

Then that phone call happened that changed all my plans.

I kept the box that contained the kits na sana ay ibibigay ko kay Cole pagdating na pagdating niya. My resolve was final, I will make him agree to go and chase after his dreams.

Pagkatapos magpaalam sa airport, kahit sobrang bigat ng loob ko at gusto ko na lang magpahinga at umiyak ng umiyak ay dumerecho ako sa doctor's clinic to confirm my pregnancy. I was planning to do it the day after I found out about it but I don't want to waste any minute with my Coley.

When the OB confirmed my pregnancy, a tear dropped because of too much happiness. I am indeed 6 weeks pregnant. It explained the mood swings and sharp sense of smell.

What I did after was I went home and clean our little abode to kill time.

I will share to you my little secret. Alam niyo ba na balak ko sanang putulin ang lahat ng communication with Coley pag alis niya? I was planning to go away para hindi ko na siya madistract while he's working abroad but after careful thinking, naisip ko na baka mas masira ko siya kapag ganoon. I thought about our life together kahit bago pa namin inamin sa isa't isa ang pagmamahal namin. A simple gesture could hurt or make my Coley happy. He's also bullheaded at times. I was so guilty for even thinking of cutting communication with my love. Tinago ko na nga ang pregnancy ko. I cannot make him so worried that he can't concentrate and will make him go home.

But I will keep the pregnancy until after he fulfills his dream. Hindi ko alam kung papaano pero bahala na si batman. Dahil sobrang kilala ko si Coley, alam ko na kapag nalaman niya ay uuwi at uuwi siya. To hell with his dreams, he will go home running to me and our baby. I know, because I know his way of loving.

Pag stop over niya sa Bangkok ay tumawag siya agad. Hay, ang Coley ko talaga. Paano ko to makakaya ng dalawang taon? Paano namin makakaya?

"Baby, na miss na kita. Nahihirapan ako mahal."

Pilit kong pinigilan ang pag iyak kasi nagfiface time kami. I have to be strong for us.

"Loveeee....three hours pa lang eh. Kakayanin natin to okay?" Tumango siya at bumusangot na parang bata.

Hay Coleyyy. Nasanay akong inaalagaan mo at ngayong malayo ka ay parang gusto ko na ako naman ang mag-alaga sa'yo. Don't worry, ibibigay ko nalang yun sa baby mo...sa baby natin. Napangiti ako habang tinititigan ang napakagwapong mukha ng mahal ko.

"Did you eat na? Diba may work ka later?"

"Yes love. Idlip lang ako ng konti then ligo and go to work na."

"Can you record your live report later baby para mapanood ko? Baka nasa ere pa ako paglabas nun."

"Okay love."

"Baby, I know you make hasty decisions sometimes na akala mo makabubuti saten. Please don't cut our communication. Please know that I love you so much. I am doing this sacrifice for you, for us. Kakayanin ko ang twoyears na malayo tayo for our future. Papakasalan pa kita. Magpopropose pa ako and I will make sure that you won't turn me down the second time."