The Definition Of Forever (Inked Hearts 1)

Forty-three

AN:

First time writing from Tae's perspective... idk I tried!

Also- 2k! WAIT WHAT!?!

Taehyung first person pov:

How to tell one of your best friends that you're going out on a date with the girl they're obsessing over 101:

Step one: talk to them immediately.

Step two: explain the situation, calmly, and truthfully.

Step three: learn how to make a halfway decent apology.

Step four: duck in case of punch.

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First off let me say this:

When Diana Noona and I were talking about soulmates, I was able to open up to her like I never could with any other girl before. She listened to what I needed to say without judgment, and when I told her that I've never been on a date before, her immediate response wasn't mocking or pity. She offered to take me out on my first date, just because it was the nice thing to do, just because she could. No one has ever shown me that sort of kindness before.

So I said yes when she said that it didn't have to mean anything and we could do it as friends, but then after Kate took her down the isles, I thought about what Kookie would think. As the youngest, my Hyungs and I have always felt protective over him, so naturally, I don't want to hurt him in any way, and this whole Diana Noona business is serious, but what harm could it really do right? If it's just as friends...

Still, the thought doesn't sit well with me, as we drive back to the dorm. We dropped Diana Noona off at her apartment at her request, so she won't be there when we get back with the news. But now I'm starting to wish she would be there to soften the blow. Not that I think Kookie will be really mad or anything, but he's scary when he's mad.

We walk through the door and are met with a happy Tannie, and shouts from the other boys in the next room:

"But then you'll always have energy!"

"Then why not just pick an energy drink?!"

"Because coffee tastes better!"

"I'd still go with banana milk!"

"You all are wrong! Tea is definitely the way to go!"

"What's this all about?" Jin Hyung asks as we walk into the room.

"Jimin asked us what drink we would choose if we could only drink one thing ever again, with the acceptance of water," Namjoon Hyung explains.

"Hot chocolate!" Jin announces, and groans fill the room.

"Remember that really good hot chocolate we had in Mexico?"

"Remember it?! I still have dreams about that cup of heaven!"

"I'd still go with sprite!" Hoseok Hyung says with a firm nod.

I can feel myself wanting to join in with the conversation, but I know that if I do then I'll lose my chance to talk to Jungkook because chances that I'll chicken out are very high.

"Kookie, can I talk to you?" I bite the bullet.

Jungkook looks over at me from his position on the couch, and his glasses slip down his face a little. He nods and we walk upstairs, avoiding the glances thrown our way by our older band members.

"So what's this about?" Jungkook asks, sitting down on my bed once I've shut the door.

I buy myself a second and take a shaky breath, trying and failing to calm my nerves. "Umm, you know Diana Noona?" I say a bit lamely and take a seat on the bed.

"Yes Hyung, I know Diana Noona." He says a bit exasperatedly.

"Well, umm, something happened today while we were shopping.."

I look over at Jungkook and see him tense up. His jaw tightens, back straightens, and his eyes grow hard. "What happened?" he asks quietly.

"I, we were talking about soulmates and stuff," I say and I see him get a concerned look in his eyes.

"And I mentioned that I'd never been on a date before, and, umm," I stutter, "She offered to take me out on a date, as friends!" I say and make sure to emphasize the last word.

Silence fills the room for a minute, but when he does speak up I can't tell if I'm grateful or terrified.

"She asked you to go on a date with her?" he asks and I can see him trying to be ok with everything.

"But only as friends Kookie," I say and scoot closer to him. "She meant it as a friendly thing to do. Nothing more."

Or at least I hope it's nothing more. Not that she's unattractive, she's actually one of the most beautiful and stunning people I've ever met. But, I don't have feelings for her, nor do any other of my Hyungs, I'm pretty sure. No, it's kind of an unspoken rule between us that if she's going to date any of us it's going to be Kookie since he's the one who can't get her out of his head.

"And what did you say?" he asks looking up at me with those big eyes of his and I feel like the worst person ever.

How could I do this to him!! I mean it's not like they're dating or anything, but it still feels like I'm betraying him.

"I said yes....?" I say and the end of my sentence goes up like I'm asking a question.

He nods and looks back down at the floor. He stays like that for a while before looking back up at me with a pained smile. "Then, have fun."

I look at his face thoroughly to try and get some hint as to whether or not it was said from a place of anger or spite, but I find no answers.

"Kookie please know that this is just a one-time thing and that I don't have feelings for her." He nods again, but I can't tell if he's really hearing what I'm saying, "Kookie, I can cancel it if you'd feel more comfortable."

At this, his eyes snap to mine with alarm, "No Hyung, it's fine. Really, I, I'd be better to know now than later where her feelings are."

"Then you should talk to her." I say and he starts mindlessly nodding again. "hey, she's a really good listener. I'd bet it'd help."

"Yeah, maybe." He says and then looks back at me. He must read the concern on my face because his expression softens. "Oh Hyung, don't be sad. It's really ok, it's not even like I have a right to get mad."

"Kookie, don't say that."

"Why? It's the truth."

"Maybe but still. Don't fight your feelings." I say and run a hand over his back.

He nods again and rests his head on my shoulder. We sit like that for a while, and my mind wanders from thoughts of Kookie to Diana until a thought snags in my brain.

What the hell am I going to wear?!?!?

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AN:

Ok...
So I know my posting schedules have been off lately, due to travel, and personal issues that I've had to work through recently, but I hope you guys are still enjoying the story!

-Leia 💜