The Definition Of Forever (Inked Hearts 1)

Seventy-two

AN:

Whew!
So after the last chapter are you guys excited, nervous, anxious, for this chapter or what? 😂

Actually, if I were you, I probably would have skipped this AN all together!

Lmao I'll shut up! 🤐

This chapter is dedicated to @harukaame thank you for all that you've done for me and this story! 💜

"I know her face, but I don't know her name."

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Diana first person POV:


There is a warmth that I have never before known. So pure and healing, it envelopes me completely and soaks through my bones. I feel as if I've been shut up inside a dark winter, and am finally stepping into the golden sun. I feel the happiest I've ever been in my life.

I feel like I can breathe.

Strong and secure, I'm held and cherished. I'm in your arms, my back up against your beating heart. I am safe here. I am whole here. Here, I am with you.

I never want to leave. Just let me stay here in your arms with you. Never let me go and diminish this feeling in my heart. You feel like a drug that has dug its way into my system, and I crave more. I can't focus on anything else. You. You are here.

But then you aren't.

Your arms retract, your chest pulls away from mine, and then you are gone.

The cold comes flooding back and I cannot breathe. Under this weight of guilt, I crumble into a thousand pieces. This agony that forces its way down my lungs and rips at my heart is too much for me to bear.

The light you gave is extinguished, and the darkness is all I can see. Coldness like the farthest corner of the universe grinds away at my bones, and I can feel myself falling apart.

And now, pain is all I know.

***

There are many great gifts in life.

One is having a good family and friends. Another is a good education. Falling in love too. And then there are other simpler gifts like chocolate, dessert, puppies, kittens, books, avocados, and more.

But one of my favorite gifts that the universe can give, is waking up of your own accord, instead of the blaring beep of an alarm.

And today the universe decided to allow me that precious gift.

I come to consciousness before I open my eyes. It's a skill that many talk about, or wish to have, but the truth is that most are unable to control it. I, on the other hand, have always been able to catch myself before opening my eyes, and have consequently caught some valuable conversations.

A pale orange-yellow meets my closed eyes, and I take that moment to simply breathe in and out, trying to center my mind and collect my thoughts before starting my day and facing reality.

Finally opening my eyes, I draw in a sharp but silent breath.

This is not my hoodie.
This is not my blanket.
This is not my bed.
This is not my room...

Focusing my eyes on the curtain covered window, I sit up in bed and try to piece together what happened last night.

I ate through eight large peanut butter cups. I called my mom and we talked about new slang that she was confused about for a good hour and a half, I listened to "I'll Make A Man Out Of You.", I went to the BTS dorms to watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S, I avoided seeing Jin Oppa and Kate making-out, then Jungkook and I talked in the kitchen, and then......

I slept over.
I slept over at BangTan's dorm.
I slept in Kate's sweatpants and Jungkook's hoodie.
I slept in Jungkook's room.
I slept in Jungkook's bed.