"She's the first one that I see and I don't know why. I don't know who she is."
- Fresh out of his first solo album, Harry styles is having a reoccurring dream about a girl he doesn't know. One day, on the set of his new music video, he meets her an...
I wake up to my phone ringing. I know right away it's my mom because she is the only one that ever calls me anymore. I sit up rather quickly and check my alarm, 8:45 AM. Why does she have to call me so early every morning? I clear my throat so it doesn't sound like I just woke up.
"Hello." I answer
"Good morning are you up?" she says sounding weirdly perky.
"Yeah, I was just making myself some peanut butter and banana toast like always" I lie right through my teeth. I know if I told her that I wasn't up she would be upset, and I don't really like to make her upset. I rarely see her enough as it is since I moved out to LA. I need to stay on her good side.
"That sounds so good. Well I just wanted to make sure you were up and weren't hungover from some crazy party you went to last night." she jokes
"Very funny mom" I responded annoyed. She tells me this joke every morning like it's going to get funnier the more she says it. She loves my social anxiety as you can tell.
"Well I was just seeing if you were thinking of coming home for thanksgiving?" she asks.
"Mom, it's july."
"I know that I just wanted to know because your cousins are coming in town and you know that they would love to see you and hear all about your life in Los Angeles." She tells me so sweetly. Now I know why she was being so perky. She knows I don't like being around my family because they do nothing but make everyone else feel bad about themselves because they're such a perfect family. Then again, maybe she's right. I should probably come home and tell them about my life here. Shit, what am I saying? There is nothing to tell them! I haven't done anything!
"Um, I'll think about it, how about that?" i ask her
"Rosanna, I am serious!"
So am I jennifer. Let me think damnit.
"Ah! My toast! It's burning!" I lie just to get out of this uncomfortable situation, "I have to go. I'll call you later! I love you more, byeeee."
I hang up the phone and throw myself back on the bed thinking. I don't really want to go home and hear my family tell me how much of a mistake it was to move out here because honestly, it wasn't. I am so much happier here than I was back home. I am being myself and pursuing my dreams here. Well kind of. As of right now I am quietly pursuing my dreams on the weekends. During the week I am pursuing my dream of teaching high school english classes. Yeah, it can get boring at some points, but I have always loved stories and poetry. Also I love my students, they truly brighten my day.
I sigh loudly and decided I needed to get up. I roll off my bed right onto the floor where I am greeted by my puppy stevie. Stevie is a sweetheart and she likes cuddles. My friends say she is the opposite of me, but I disagree. I think we are the exact same. We both only cuddle with people we love, which is each other and no one else. I just don't see the problem with that.
I say goodmorning to her and we snuggle on my rug for a while until I decide I need to get dressed. I go to my closet and do another blind closet pick out. I grabbed some black biker shorts, my thrifted rock band T-shirt, and my air forces with matching socks.
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I wasn't too upset with my choice and it was the perfect outfit to wear with no makeup so I was pleased.I grabbed some bracelets that I left sitting on my nightstand, my rings and my purse and start to walk to my car. I drive a gray 2008 Hyundai sonata. I always get made fun of for driving that around but I love that car. I even put a cute air freshener in there and everything. I grabbed my phone and looked at the time. 9:00AM. Well, guess we're going to Beachwood Cafe today.
