SHE - HS

CHAPTER 35: You And Me

HARRY'S POV

Days feel like weeks, weeks away from Rosie. Since I started the tour, she's all ive been thinking about. Mitch always tells me to get over it and focus on my music, but how can I do that when my music is all the way back in LA. my heart and soul was teaching a high school english class as I test mics and sounds and shit.

I missed her. I missed her so much.

We called every other night, but it wasn't enough. I wanted to feel her body pressed against mine as she nuzzled her head into the crease of my neck and I stroked her curly, dark hair. I wanted to fall asleep to our breathing in unison like we did all those sleepless nights ago.

I sat in my dressing room staring at my phone looking at the pictures we took together just before I left. I smile down at them remembering all the happy times we have had and wondering what we are going to do when I finally get to see her again.

I still haven't told her how I feel about her because the last thing I ever want to do is scare her off and have her never talk to me. She became such an important part of my life that I would do anything to keep her in my life. If she told me to shave my head for her to stay, I would shave it quicker than she could blink, And I love my hair. So if that's not saying something, I don't know what will.

I snap out of my daydream to three knocks on my door.

"Come in," I speak normally. I see Jeff and Mitch's reflection in the mirror, making me turn my chair to face them. I sit there as they come inside and shut the door behind them. I can tell by the look on their faces something is up, but no one wants to say anything. They look like they got in trouble at the principal's office and won't fess up. "What up guys?" I ask, finally breaking the silence.

Jeff looks over to mitch who raises his eyebrows back at him, almost as if he is shocked at something. I watch in confusion before mitch finally steps forward and takes a big deep breath.

"What's going on with you man?" he asks and I raise an eyebrow at his question. "Don't give me that face, you know exactly what I mean. If you aren't doing sound check your sitting in this room by yourself until the show starts. Then after the show you go straight to your hotel like you're some broken hearted child." he crossed his arms in what seemed like anger to me. I widened my eyes at his statement trying to take it all in.

The problem was, I could be a broken hearted child all over again if I let this thing go with rosie. I didn't want to feel that pain again, especially with her.

I take a deep breath in before replying to his statement.

"It's Rosie," I sigh, hanging my head low and I hear both of them scoff under their breath. "I know- I know I sound stupid, but it's just something with her. I can never seem to get her off my mind. She's all I ever think about."

All I ever wanted.

"She's a high school english teacher, harry. Not a fucking model or movie star, but a fucking english teacher!" Jeff raises his voice at me and I feel the blood in my body begin to get hotter and hotter by the second.

"So what?" I ask matching his pitch, "what if I don't want to date a movie star, or a supermodel? Huh? What if for once in my life since I was sixteen fucking years old I want something normal? What if she is all I have to make me feel like I am still a normal person? When I'm around her I'm not this big super star or this- this guy every girl dreams of marrying someday. I'm just me. I'm not Harry Styles, One Direction member, womanizer, and 'hottest man on the planet. I'm Harry Styles, born and raised in Homes Chapel with a loving mother and stepdad and a beautiful sister. Is that too much to ask for?" I couldn't help but yell at this point. I was so frustrated as it is that she was so far away, now I have to explain myself to my best friends. I have had enough. I sat back down, turning the chair to face the mirror and throwing my head in my hands. I hear mitch step closer to me and suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder, making me flinch a little.