SHE - HS

CHAPTER 7

I jump in my car and quickly start it. I don't bother connecting to aux because I just wanted to get there before I changed my mind. I pull out my phone and look up the nearest bar. I know there are a lot of people at bars so there have to be some nice ones, right?

I find one thats about five minutes away so I get the directions and start driving.

"Alright alright, 93.7 back again with the hits. Let's give it up one more time for harry styles 'Sign of the Times'"

Oh my gosh what is it with this guy? He comes out with one song and all the radio stations go crazy?

The more they played it the more I didn't want to listen to it.

I quickly changed the station to the classics station I knew wouldn't disappoint. 'More Than a Feeling' by Boston was playing. That was my brother's favorite song. We use to sing that song all the time. It would always play at the grocery store. He would always play me that song whenever I was sad. I don't know what it is about the song but it jsut always make me smile. Maybe it's because I share it with my brother?

I wonder how hes doing?

We haven't talked lately. When I left he wasn't very happy with me. He was excited for me to go and explore the world but he didn't want me to leave him. I told him he was gonna come visit me whenever he wanted, but I havent heard from him since new years.

I get to the bar and park behind it. I decide it would be a good idea to text him and just see how things are going. I miss talking to him. I miss seeing him, hearing his voice, being around him.

I miss him.

I open my messages and search for his name.

To Lucas: hey buddy! How are you? Still waiting for you to come visit. Call me when you're free :)

I closed my phone and shove it into my purse. I take a deep breath in and hold it there.

Am I really have to go in?

The words greta told me kept replaying in my head. I have to do this. I breath out and turn off my car. I lock it and quickly walk to the bar. I get in with ease and was instantly hit with humidity. The room was full. People dancing under blue, red and green flashing lights. My heartbeat sunk into my chest. I could feel the sweat start to form on my forhead. I started to panic trying to find out what my net move was going to be.

Should I go straight for the dance floor? Should I just hide in the bathroom for a while? Maybe I should just leave?

I start to look around franticly until my eyes finally stop on something.

The bar.

Good idea. I'll just stay by the bar all night. I make my way over there and find an open seat. I sit and quickly order a pineapple muke. Those always did me justice.

As I down some more mules, I looked around the room to see if anyone caught my eye, but everyone looked like they were having fun with their friends. I love seeing people happy, it makes me happy myself, but sometimes I wished I had what they had. I wish I had a big group of friends that I could call on when I need a night out. When I feel lonely and just need someone around. You know, someone that doesn't walk on all fours and grows at me when I tell them they can't go outside. Sometimes it just sucks to be so lonely all the time.

What am I doing? Am I really feeling bad for myself right now? Oh my goodness, This was a mistake.

After the bartender brings me my third mule, I place my face in my eyes in my hands as they slowly start to get wet. I hate being here. 

"Why did I come here?" I think outloud.

Suddenly I can feel a presence behind me. I shoot my head up and look forward.

"Sorry I'll move you can-" i speak but I am quickly cut off.

"No please I'll just sit next to you." I hear a strong British accent say behind me.

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