WALK THROUGH WALLS

THIRTY-FOUR

I decided to go and lower my Luo ego by asking for forgiveness from Rae. I know that in Africa we are not so much emotional that we cry for even small issues but what can I do, when you go to Rome you do what Romans do so I just had to do that. I separated with the others but walked with Tem and Korn being that both boys and girls teams off the same team colour were assigned the same area to practise.

" By the way you two, I have noticed that you always refer to each other as P' why is that because I don't think you are of the same age. There must an elder and a junior between you two." Korn asked to kind of break the annoying silence among us.
" It's not an issue P'. P' Lensah was glad to meet a Thai guy so she wanted to practise and have a feel of how it is to address someone using Phi or Nong but mostly Phi so we agreed to address each other that way." Tem answered.
" And also because my stupid Thai brother has refused to give me that previledge of addressing him using Phi. P'Tem was kind enough to make my dream come true." I added.
" It seems as if you were destined to meet." Korn said, " you look like you were friends since before."
" You have noticed also. It's easy to bond with her much that I don't know if we will still keep in touch after these contest." Tem said.
" It's just that he sang my favourite song during the open night and then he is from Thailand so l had to know him. About the future, it's up to you. I know how to keep in touch with my friends no matter the distance between us." I said.
" So, do I make it in that friends' list?" Korn asked while looking at me with pleading eyes.
" Well P' , it depends on how you prove yourself worthy." I said then winked at him. I then rushed inside the pink room to where my team members were.

I went and sat next to Eugenie who helped me to be at per with what it was being discussed. According to the plan, all the Korean girls were given verses while the three of us were to sing the chorus which didn't make any sense being that everyone was going to sing the chorus. Also the reason behind not being given parts to sing was that we are not Korean language speakers so we might fail the group when it came to articulating the words of the song. Also that we are performing a song that was originally sang by six girls and we are eight so it is just automatically known that two of us will not have any parts.

As much as their reasons had even evidence to support their claim really pissed me off. I wanted to complain but I remembered what Tuan and Jungkook had just told me earlier. The other problem came when we were going through the choreography. As earlier said, the song is originally by six girls but we are eight which meant that we will have to rush some parts so that we don't go off beat. Rae made sure that I was at a place where I was not visible. Whenever we had a change of style, I was always last to reach my part before changing which meant that I was literally running on stage.

By the time we were finished, I was so tired that I had to lie down to catch my breath. Miki brought me a bottle of water. She also told me that it was Rae's plan to make me give up and walk out of the competition. We were talking in Japanese because she didn't want them to know what we were discussing. I decided to take that as a challenge. Miki and I had the worded disadvantage being that our position was behind. We decided that apart from the together practice with the rest of the members, we were to schedule our own practise schedule.

They say that when everything seems to be against you, you have to cultivate some hopeful path,'Penye Nia Pana Njia' I was psyched to work even harder to prove my worth. The days went by very fast. I had some challenges especially with Rae who was maliciously provoking me. I remember there was even a time when her friends had to tell her off. She made sure that she found fault in everything I did. I followed what Felix said about holding my crucifix anytime I feel like am about to do something stupid. Tem and Korn also helped calm me down. I also decided to walk out when I saw that nothing happened.

By the blink of the eye, the Dee day arrived. I remember there was the common song that all the contestants were to sing together to announce the start of the THE GREATEST ASIAN POP BAND- SOUTH KOREA. I had asked for permission not to perform the song being that I was not feeling well so I had to perform the group song alone. On Friday night, we met in our usual assembling auditorium to be given the instructions for the next day. The best groups for both boys and girls were promised a trip around Seoul. The bottom member from each group were to go for the elimination round. For the week relegation, we were to pair up , that is, boy - girl duet. That meant that pink group boy was to sing together with the girl from the same pink team. Four members were to go home at the end of the week.

These rules were to change every week. Then there was the team work activities that would be done on the Friday night where we will be competing for team points. The winners of the relegation of the previous week were to choose the activity of the next Friday. After every performance, there will be an evaluation session with the judges. After that, all the teams were to assemble in their assign rooms to be told their scores and to know the member who was to go for elimination part.

We were also told that the judges are the ones to choose the best team of the week that will be gifted. The team members will also help to send their member home or retain him or her. The rules were so many that I remember we were told that they may change or be added as the competition went on. As I went to bed that night, I remember my prayer that day. I stared with the sign of the cross
아버지, 아들, 성령의 이름으로. 아멘.

God,
You are the judge of what is right and what is not,
As the Chinese say, I have shown love to you being that I call upon your holy spirit to lead my path daily,
Love for others , heck I have even helped out my pinkish roommate whom I never thought I would ever talk to her, I also helped out my team mates who needs my help. My son who needs a judgemental ear to his screaming, you know that he can't hit high notes but I helped him out....
I know the last part of this Chinese proverb says that I should be last,
If I ask a favour from you my God, will it be too much?
I just want to perform to my ability,
My prayer has always been that I have done my best and I am leaving the rest in your hands lord...
Today I want to dedicate Rae onto your hands lord,
I don't want anything for my benefit but for the benefit of those who deserve it.
I don't want much, just bless my family members wherever they are lord,
Be with them
In Jesus name...Amen.

Then the sign of the cross again
아버지, 아들, 성령의 이름으로. 아멘.