Finding my mum

36- getting the news confirmed

Today was the day that Chloe and I would find out if she's pregnant or not. We'd told Ashley that we were going out for a girls day so he didn't get to suspicious.

We got in the car and headed off to the doctors. Chloe was quiet and I could tell that she was dreading the result especially if it was positive. I could understand why especially after learning what happened to Eddie and how Ashley had been. I knew that she'd get through it as she's incredibly strong and I'd be by her side no matter what happened.

I put the radio on as it usually distracts us as we sing and forget everything that's happening. It helped a bit but I could tell that she was still thinking about having to tell Ashley if it's positive.

When we got to the doctors, we were called straight in. Chloe had to go to do another test while I waited with the doctor. When she came back I tried to calm her down while we were waiting.

Chloe could tell by the doctors face what it said. She ran out so I grabbed our things and went after her. I eventually found her.

Me: "hey, it's ok. It'll be ok."

Chloe just sat there looking at the floor.

Me: "talk to me. No matter what you're thinking I wanna know"
Chloe: "I can't go through this again. Especially after what happened with Eddie. It's taken me ten years to try to understand it"
Me: "I can't imagine what you've been through, no it won't be easy but I'm going to be there no matter what and you've got the counsellor to talk to if you can't talk to me. Plus you're friends have your back"
Chloe: "what about Ashley? He's going to flip"
Me: "leave the stressing to me ok? We'll tell him together if you want?"
Chloe: "I love you my little princess"
Me: "I love you too. Come on, how about we look around the shops, get some food and figure out how we're going to tell him?"
Chloe: "can we go home and just tell him instead? I'm not really in the mood for shopping"
Me: "if that's what you want to do then that's what we'll do"

We went back to the car and headed home. I was trying to stay positive but I knew that this could end badly.