Finding my mum

41- finding out whats wrong with Janette

Me: "just say it or let me guess you don't have a partner this year and you didn't know how to tell me after you heard me saying how much I love the show"
Janette: "I'm sorry"
Me: "save it"

I ran out of the dressing room right into Stacey. She could tell that something had happened, she stood there hugging me until I'd calmed down a bit.

Stacey: "come on, let's go somewhere quiet to talk"

I followed her and we found a empty dressing room.

Stacey: "do you feel any better?"
Me: "a little bit thanks"
Stacey: "nobody uses this room so we can stay here as long as you want"
Me: "thanks"
Stacey: "it's alright. Do you want me to message Amy?"
Me: "no thanks. I'll be alright in a bit"
Stacey: "do you want to talk about whatever upset you?"
Me: "why do people always feel the need to lie to me?"
Stacey: "I don't know"
Me: "if you have somewhere to be then I'll be alright on my own"
Stacey: "I'll stay if you want me to"
Me: "it's up to you. I might try and sleep for a bit. It's how I deal with everything"
Stacey: "I'll wait until your asleep then I'll put a note on the door"

Stacey didn't have long to wait as soon as my head hit the pillow against the arm of the sofa I was asleep.

The next thing I knew was there was a knock on the door. I forgot where I was then remembered what had happened before I'd fallen asleep.

Me: "come in"

It was Stacey and she'd brought Amy with her.

Stacey: "hey"
Me: "hey"
Amy: "you ok? Stacey told me that you were upset earlier"
Me: "I was but that sleep has helped"
Stacey: "good. Do you want to talk about it?"
Me: "have either of you seen Janette? I need to talk to her"
Amy: "I'll message her if you want me to?"
Me: "ask her where she is please. Don't tell her where I am though, I wanna keep this between us if that's ok?"
Amy: "of course. You stay here with Stacey and I'll go find her. I won't be long"
Stacey: "what's Janette got to do with it?"
Me: "I had a go at her earlier"
Stacey: "oh"
Amy: "she's in the star bar. Come on we'll take you"
Me: "thanks"

As we were walking over to the star bar, I got to see more of the studio. As we got closer I started to feel sick. Stacey and Amy could tell something was up.

Amy: "you ok?"
Me: "I'll be better after I've spoken to Janette"

We walked in and saw her in the corner. Of course she was still with Karen. We walked over and Janette held out her arms for a hug and I just ran into them like I'd done at every meeting.

All the pros and celebs looked around confused and I knew that this was the moment everyone would find out the truth.