WHAT IS HAPPINESS FOR US

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The emergency room door burst open as the paramedics push Jinwoo to the operation room.

Jaemin followed behind them, not wanting to lose sight of Jinwoo.

His heart hurts a lot and sow was his head after crying for so long. He admit that this was all his fault. Its inevitable fact.

Since he was unable to enter the emergency room, Jaemin had to wait outside. He couldn't think straight and his mouth kept muttering words of prayers, with hopes that the doctors would be able to save Jinwoo.

Jaemin recalled what he saw back at Jinwoo's room.

The picture of himself on his laptop wallpaper really touched him a lot.

No one in this world love Jaemin as much as Jinwoo did.

Jinwoo was always there to provide happiness for him, but the thing that made Jaemin felt guilty was the fact that he didn't return the same gesture. Instead, Jaemin gave him heartbreaks after heartbreaks.

Jaemin checked the clocked for the third time and its been nearly two hours. He was about to doze off when his phone rang.

It was a call from his mother.

"Hello?"

"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU HUH?!"

"...eomma listen im--"

"YOUR SCHOOL CALLED ME AND SAID THAT YOU RAN AWAY! IS THAT TRUE?!"

"look eomma im in the hospital because Jinwoo hanged himself and i--"

"SO YOU WENT OUT OF SCHOOL? FOR WHAT REASON?!"

"I had a small fight with Jinwoo so I wanted to make things right and--"

"You ran out of school because of that?! Are you crazy?! Why the hell did I sent you to school for huh?! YOU COME HOME RIGHT NOW!"

"But the doctors--"

"COME HOME OR ELSE OR I'M GONNA THROW YOUR STUFF OUT OF THE HOUSE!!! YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!"
Mrs. Yoo shouted from the other end before putting down the phone.

Jaemin mentally tore his hair before throwing his bag on the floor. He was really losing his mind now.

Oh God why now.....

He could have sworn that right at this moment, he just wanna jump down from the building.

The person was unabearable and it is starting to eat him up.

In the end, Jaemin left his phone number to receptionist so that they can call him to update about Jinwoo's condition.

When Jaemin reach home, his mother was already shouting and throwing stuff around the house. He knows that he is going to get it the moment he entered the house.

But nothing scares him anymore.

He is ready for anything.

Even death.

He opened the door to the house and there stood Mrs. Yoo with a cane in her hands.

"YOU UNGRATEFUL CHILD!" She grabbed the hair of his son and threw him to the ground.

Without any explanation, Mrs. Yoo continuously cane her son.

Jaemin was in agony of pain when the bamboo hit this fragile skin.

"Eomma I'M SORRY!!!" He continuously please but his mom purposely didn't hear him out.

"YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THIS FAMILY!" She spat at him before throwing a piece of paper at his son.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS HUH?!!!"

Jaemin peek through his arms which he use to shield his face.

It was the paper that had the schedule to meet the therapist that Jaemin and made an appointment with.

And in that paper, it includes the summary of their sessions.

"YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH A GUY?! WHAT KIND OF SICK HUMAN BEING ARE YOU?!!!" Mrs. Yoo cane him a couple more times as she lashed out all the profanities at him.

Jaemin couldn't do anything else, except to apologise. He doesn't want to fight back he knows that his mother has a weak heart. If provoke, her chest might hurt a lot.

"I SENT YOU TO SCHOOL TO STUDY AND NOT TO BE IN FUCKING RELATIONSHIP!!! AND NOW WITH A GUY?!!! AND NOW WITH A GUY?!!! AREN'T YOU ASHAMED OF YOURSELF?!" She hit him one last time before the cane broke into two.

Mrs. Yoo stare at the cane and threw it at the side.

Jaemin laid on the floor lifelessly.

His body was full of slits and most of it was bleeding.

He couldn't even move at all.

But it wasn't his body that hurts the most.....

It was his heart.