It All Started with a Dare [Super Slow Editing !!]

Author's note

I know you're all tired of the Author's note but I just want to share something with you guys. Or is it more like I just want to let out whats inside me. Let my anger out , sadness or happiness something like that. Cause writing and drawing are the only way I can express my feelings. I'm not a very talkative person. I don't really like talking a lot. But you know I just feel empty. It feels like I'm a ghost that no one can see. Yeah you can say I'm getting to emotional. There are times that suicide comes in my mind. Or sometimes I just wished that I'm the one who died instead of my mother. I didn't know that life would be this hard. People mostly see me happy and full of joy but it's not what I am. Some of them also called me the happy girl or the smiling girl cause that's what they see. Yes I'm smiling but deep inside I'm broken. I'm heavily broken

I don't know who will I trust. Actually I don't trust anyone. Even my friends. My family. Does it sometimes comes in your mind that you just want to go to a place where sadness can't go? Where you can be fearless? Cause it seem that no one appreciate what I do. They always say I'm wrong. Everything I do is wrong. I don't know what's real anymore. I don't know why I'm saying this. I just want to let things out. I'm just tired of everything.