Exposure

EX:14

Chapter 14

Tiana's Perspective

"Can you find it in you to bend a little, so I don't have to break?" -Kat Savage

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I couldn't sleep last night. I felt so ashamed and embarrassed of myself for treating Owen the way I did. It was never my intention to treat him as if he was the last thing on my plate but it just... happened. I wanted to apologize but he was extremely upset and the way he responded to my actions with disappointment instead of anger seemed to make me feel even lower. I felt like a little girl in trouble for doing something so stupid and only he could make me feel that way.

I sat at the round table in the busy restaurant moving my white rice around in every direction using silverware as Faith, Kacey, and Ally talked about random stuff. To be honest I couldn't even pay attention to the conversation because my mind was on other things. I sat the metal fork down taking a sip of the wine in my glass trying to find some sort of ease.

He was right, I had become too comfortable with him. I had been slacking on my duties as a girlfriend like crazy. Owen needed a lot of attention like any man and I hadn't been giving him that recently. We hadn't even had an intimate moment in I don't know how long. I mean if I actually do have so much going on then why am I even in a relationship? Maybe my mind was just creating a million thoughts and questions that I was not prepared for.

Kacey shook my shoulder snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Tia, you okay? You ain't said a word since we sat down."

I nodded my head continuing to stare at my almost empty wine glass.

"She's still upset about what happened with Owen last night."

"Ally!?"

She shrugged her shoulders making me sign in frustration. That wasn't her business to tell.

"Tia you're my girl and I love you but you knew that was messed up, and I wouldn't be telling you this if I didn't care for you. Besides we tell each other everything else." She said in a nonchalant manner chewing lightly.

I sighed knowing that she was correct.

"What happened with you and Owen?" Faith asked in a concerned manner while Kacey rubbed my shoulder.

"He planned a special night for us and I showed up three hours late for it... but I didn't know that he was planning it," I spoke up trying to defend myself as Kacey and Faith looked around awkwardly.

Kacey spoke, "I don't know Tia that's pretty fucked up."

"Yeah if Monica did that I'd be mad as fuck at her." Faith joked agreeing with Kacey.

"Hey, it's not funny nor or your responses helping."

I was starting to feel worse than I already was.

"Sorry girl," Kacey apologized patting my back.

"Tia girl stop feeling sorry for yourself this doesn't make you a bad person, Owen knows your heart he's just probably upset right now but we're all human and I'm sure he didn't commit to a person without knowing there were going to be a few bumps in the road. Just go talk to the man I'm sure he'll understand." Ally reassured.