To Capture His Heart

Chapter 30

"Mama! Watashi no omocha no kuruma o mimashita ka?"
(translation : Mama! Did you see my toy car?)

I am cooking our lunch when I heard my baby boy asked for something. His japanese is kinda clumsy since he's still a kid. He's cute though! I just can't help myself from giggling everytime he's doing something.

"Yes, love. It's in the toy bin." I smiled at him.

We're living in Japan for almost four years. Marunong ako ng kaonting japanese but my child is so fluent! He knows english and tagalog too dahil hindi namin kinakalimutan na ituro iyon sa kaniya. We often talk to him using english and tagalog. My tita is talking to him in japanese kaya natututo rin siya.

I'm impressed how he's so smart? Probably because of his father. Pero puwede rin namang sa akin! Sa akin nalang!

I saw how he walked towards the bin and grabbed his toy car. Nakakagigil siya. He's so cute! He started walking when he's almost one. Napaka daldal din niya kahit dalawang taong gulang palang siya noon kaya tuwang tuwa ang lahat sa kaniya.

He said 'Mama' on his 7th month kaya halos maiyak ako sa sobrang tuwa.

My baby's almost turning 4. He's my Zeero Emory Celeste. My forever love.

Kamukhang kamukha siya ng ama niya. Ako ang nag dala sa kaniya nang siyam na buwan tapos ang ama lang niya na manloloko ang naging kamukha niya? Nakaka-offend but I just laughed it off. I'm okay with it, though. I still have Eero with me. A cuter one, of course!

I made curry and rice for lunch. That's his favorite. Kinuha ko na rin ang binake kong chocolate cupcakes at inilagay iyon sa tapat niya.

"Emory, lunch time!" I called him. Pumunta ako sa sala para kargahin siya papuntang dining area.

"Curry, Mama?" his cute voice is so near my ear.

I kissed his cheeks, "Yes! Since you ate vegetable yesterday, niluto ko ang paborito mo."

"Yay! Arigatogozaimasu! Mama, one more kiss!" sabi ni Emory at pinugpog ako ng halik. One more kiss ka pa riyan, a.
(translation : thank you so much)

"You should try saying that in tagalog, baby. Say 'salamat po'." pagtuturo ko sa kaniya.

He giggled, "Salamat po!"

Emory is my happy pill. Sobrang nahirapan ako kasi unang pagbubuntis ko sa kaniya pero no'ng una kong kita sa kaniya, the pain is all worth it.

"Itadakimasu!" he said and started eating.
(translation : Thanks for the food!)

Naiisip ko parin si Eero but not romantically. I was just thinking, nagpakasal na ba sila ni Liana katulad ng sa panaginip ko?

Hindi ko naisip na ang inaakala kong love ay bigla nalang mawawala. Sigurado akong wala na akong nararamdaman para sa kaniya. I don't chase people. Kung desisyon nilang magkaro'n ng iba, bahala sila sa buhay nila.

I still remember everything that happened four years ago. It inspires me to be stronger everyday.

Once you lose the person you love the most, it changes you.

That was a good experience for me to be better. Natuto akong bumitaw hindi dahil gusto ko, pero kailangan ko.

"Mommy... I need you." I sobbed. Now I undertand why I cry so much. That's where it finally sink in that I'll be a mother soon.

"Why are you crying? Do you want to go here? Shall I send our driver?" sunod sunod nitong tanong sa kabilang.

"Yes, Mom. Please. I want to get out of here."